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1. Emma's baby fan musings crack me up. Yesterday, she told me she hates incest pairings (although she has to admit it makes a great deal of sense for SPN), and that while people should be able to write what they want, they should do it away from her. LOL I told her that's why God made the back button. She also told me she doesn't get why people ship pairings that don't have a lot of subtext or canonical support, especially the characters that don't interact in canon. She has gotten waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay into Undertale--as in Undertale is all she's been able to talk about for what seems like our entire lives at this point--and she cited some examples from that video game. I told her she'd have to just take my word for it that those stories can be a lot of fun.

She told me she's not really looking for fanfic right now because she'd probably have to wade through too many fics written by 11 year olds with horrible SPAG.

And then she closed by telling me that one time she accidentally found some drawings of skeleton porn where they had ectoplasm genitals which is the funniest thing ever.

2. Downton Abbey watch continues. spoilers )

3. Fiona's birthday is tomorrow. She'll be four!!!!!!!

4. I am exhausted in the last two weeks, like way more than usual. My energy levels have been good for awhile, and I'm wondering if my thyroid levels have dropped. I hesitate to move up my August 31 endocrinologist appointment; I've done so every year for the past three years when I've had worsening symptoms, and the tests have always come back with a "Nah, not sick enough for us to do anything" verdict. I'm on the verge of starting my period, so I'm wondering if that's a factor. If I don't start to feel better in the next week, I guess I will up the appointment. I just feel so beat, and working out is a chore. :( This is definitely not normal.

5. I am done teaching for the semester! Whoooo! Grades are turned in, and now all I have to do is relax and work on the novel.
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1. Dealing with my interstitial cystitis is going okay. I did a very strict elimination diet in December that I hope to never have to do again. Between the celiac and the IC, the number of foods I was allowed to eat (that were appetizing) was vanishingly small. I think some measure of physical discomfort is worth not having to eat like that. But in the last couple weeks I have started to add foods back: onions, yogurt, apples, sour cream, chocolate. I keep adding something every few days. Yesterday I ate sour cream and chocolate (which I knew as I was doing it I should just have done one), and then I forgot to take the prelief until after I ate, so I don't know exactly what's up there. I'll probably have to take it easy for a couple days.

I have started taking aloe vera and marshmallow root, and Josh found me this stuff called Prelief that you take as you eat that neutralizes the acid in your food. I discovered that sex and the menstrual cycle can also trigger IC (which is so damn depressing), and I think I am just going to have to deal with a fairly constant low level of discomfort if I want to live any kind of a normal life. I've only been taking these things for a short time, though, so hopefully their effects will build over time.

I started taking one drug for IC and quit taking it because it made me too sleepy during the day. I declined to take the other drug they use for IC because they don't know how it works (WTF!) and it has terrible potential side effects.

2. I am continuing to lose weight. cut for talk of weight loss )

3. Meeting my reading goals! Already read 3 books this year.
lunabee34: (cmm:  b/w red by sheepy_hollow)
1. I got the best package from [ profile] decynthus today! She made me all these cool fandom magnets with multiple picture options so I can switch them out when I want to. My favorites are one of Tyrion that says "I drink wine and I know things," another one that says Lyanna Mormont for President, a photo of the TOS crew on the bridge (*sniffle*), and one of River Tam that says "my food is problematic." LOL I have the best friends. Thank you so much, sweetie.

2. In random autoimmune disorder news, I don't know exactly when this started happening but it's been since we lived here, so sometime in the last eight years, I started getting this rash on my chest and jawline. It wasn't really visible, maybe slightly red, but nothing anyone would notice if I didn't scratch it. It would appear randomly and for no reason I could discern. Turns out this is a almost certainly a celiac thing or even a Hashimoto's thing. Lots of people with both report rashes that get better or go away entirely when they go gluten free. I haven't had the rash since I went gluten free. Over the last couple of days, it's started to appear again, and I couldn't figure out why. I haven't eaten in a restaurant in weeks. Well, son-of-a-bitch the ibuprofen I've been taking over the last three days has gluten in it. Aaaaaarrrgh! Why is gluten in everything OMG?

3. I fell twice pretty spectacularly at the beginning of this month, the second time banging myself up pretty badly, and now my arthritis is acting up pretty terribly in my knee. Boo and hiss.

4. Don't forget to sign up for the Letter Writing Challenge!
lunabee34: (end of the world by crystalchain)
My dear friends, it is time for our regularly scheduled round of Lorraine Whines about Celiac.

I knew that going gluten free was not going to be magical. I knew that it wasn't despite everything I'd been reading about going gluten free curing cancer and making rainbows shine out of my ass. I knew it.

And yet, I was optimistic. So many sources told me that going gluten free was going to do everything from relieve my Hashimoto's thyroid symptoms to give me energy to allow me lose weight.

None of those things have happened (not so funnily, my thyroid symptoms started to skyrocket the second I went gluten free; I'm positive the timing is a coincidence, but within days of going gluten free, my hair started falling out in handfuls again).

spoilers for discussion of weight and eating )
lunabee34: (spn: castiel by creativeelf)
1. I had bloodwork done today--thyroid and celiac panel. I wanted an actual appointment with the doc, but this will do. I should have results by Monday. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD LET MY THYROID BE DEAD AND THUS BE AN EXPLANATION FOR THESE BODILY SHENANIGANS.

2. I found a dress for that freaking wedding. Naturally, it's Calvin Klein. I made myself deeply sad by going to Dillard's (excellent online plus size selection, maybe a fourth of that in store) and then David's Bridal. But Macy's was awesome. I found multiple dresses that fit me. I left the store feeling awesome.

3. After we go to the wedding, I'm doing a thirty day autoimmune diet. It's crazeballs restrictive and will require a metric fuckton of planning as I will not be able to eat out or eat most of what the family is eating. After the thirty days, I'll go back to eating most of what I was eating before with some exceptions. I'll post more about that closer to time.

4. I'm also going to focus more on strength training in the coming months. Lots of good info from you guys on that front.
lunabee34: (inuyasha: kagome by rhye)
No new NCIS tonight, so I have some time to kill. Love to talk to anyone who's around.

Here's what's been going on with me lately:

1. Josh has been sick pretty much all of January. He catches respiratory illnesses like cotton socks catch burrs. He has the immune system of an Ancient dying of the plague. He finally went to the doc again, and will now be taking Singulair and Flonase every day and he's adding echinacea and vitamin C to his regular vitamin regimen. Any suggestions for other things he could do to improve immune health?

2. I've been trying to up my game with self-care. My skin has been so dry because of the Hashimoto's, and so have my eyes. My eyes had gotten so dry that my vision was frequently blurry. I've been using eye drops, and the fish oil I've been taking has really helped. My nostrils had gotten painfully dry, and I've finally gotten them under control with a cocktail of Clinique Moisture Surge, Gold Bond Eczema Lotion, and a smidge of Nystantin just in case they were actually getting infected. I have to watch out for the tops of my eyelids, too; they get flaky unless I keep them super hydrated.

3. Emma and I are having so much fun watching Supernatural. I love Bobby and Ellen and Jo so much. We watched Born Under a Bad Sign tonight, and I love how early on Bobby is willing to go to bat for them (he knows possessed!Sam killed Wandell but isn't going to tell), and I love how hot that scene is when possessed!Sam is twirling Jo's hair with the knife. *fans face* It didn't occur to me on first watch, but wow at how pissed Meg had to be to screw up her daddy's plans for Sam to get revenge.

Emma's also picked up on some interesting things that didn't occur to me on first watch. So in Crossroads Blues, after Dean kisses the crossroads demon, Emma turns to me and says, "So, did John have to kiss the Yellow Eyed Demon?" And I was all, "OMG, he did! He did!" It's a bit of a retcon that we see the YED later making deals of his own when he tells John in In My Time of Dying that he can't swing saving Dean but he knows somebody who can, but I think that's just the YED keeping what he can and can't do close to the vest.

4. Emma's watching Fairy Tale. She watched all the dubbed on Netflix, and is now watching the subbed on Crunchroll. She's super invested in the Gratsu ship; I tried to find her some fic that would be appropriate for her to read, but everything on the first page was rapery and bizarre crossover. LOL Anybody familiar and have some recs?

What's going on with y'all?
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cut for discussion of weight )

So I am beginning a year long project to build a wardrobe. I'm going to have to start thinking differently about buying clothes. I'm going to have to recognize that shopping is going to be more time consuming and expensive for me. I'm going to have to travel to Atlanta and Savannah and to explore online shopping options. I need to find a tailor so that I can have clothes altered.

I've started doing some preliminary research, but I wanted to ask y'all for your help, too. Any recs for stores that carry good selections of plus size clothing (including business wear) and particular brands are welcome. Has anyone (plus size or not) shopped at Modcloth or eShakti? What was that experience like? How did the sizing run? Did you return anything? What did you think of the quality?

Any advice you can give me on wardrobe building, shopping, etc. would be heartily appreciated. Also, prayers to whatever deities you think might deign to listen that I can conceptualize this as a positive project instead of feeling like a loser and giving into despair would not go amiss.
lunabee34: (shit could be worse by unsospiro)
I prefer to visualize autoimmune disorders as nesting dolls. LOL

So, I had the appointment with my endocrinologist. I really, really like her and her practice. I showed up thirty minutes early, and they immediately started my intake. They don't double- or over-book. Both times I have seen this doctor, she spent at least thirty minutes with me in the room, asking questions and listening to me. We're talking magical fantasy land health care. I kept expecting Legolas to stroll down the hall singing tra-la-lally.

The news was mixed. On the positive side, she said that the reason I keep encountering "leaky gut" diets during my internet research is that celiac disease is often comorbid with other autoimmune disorders. If I was exhibiting signs of celiac disease, then she would test me for it, and going gluten free would be part of the treatment. But I am not, so I don't have to worry about following any of those extreme no gluten, no dairy, no soy diets. Yay!

Also on the positive side, she's going to test me for an additional autoimmune disorder she thinks I may have and do some further thyroid and hormone level testing to track how that's changed over the last year; depending on the results, that may result in some treatment options.

Now for the bad news. Standard practice is not to treat Hashimoto's until your body destroys your thyroid. This can take a very long time. Years. A decade or more. Or it can take five minutes. Who can guesss? This doctor told me she will start treating patients who are borderline (which is good), but I'm not there yet. This means I just have to deal with the negative side effects of my thyroid cycling up into hyperthyroidism (night sweats, insomnia, anxiety).

She thinks based on family history and symptoms, I might also have Sjogren's Syndrome, but we're not going to test for that because I'm not willing to take drugs to suppress my immune system. The main symptom I'm having is dryness, particularly of the eyes, and I'm not willing to risk infection and etc. just for that. If it would help with exhaustion and energy levels, I might consider taking that kind of medication, but it probably would not have that effect.

discussion of weight loss )

and now for the coda, in which Lorraine has her blood ineptly drawn )
lunabee34: (shit could be worse by unsospiro)
1. I am so grateful to finally be diagnosed with Hashimoto’s Disease. I’ve been doing some research since my diagnosis, and it explains so much about the way I’ve been feeling since Fiona was born. (Although the autoimmune disorder pre-dated my pregnancy with Feefers, many women start to notice thyroid symptoms after a pregnancy because the baby eats up what little thyroid you have left LOL) My exceedingly dry skin? That two month period when my hair kept falling out in clumps? The way I am cold all the time now after having spent thirty three years as a hot, sweaty mess? The way I constantly cycle between diarrhea and constipation? The insomnia, the night sweats? The way I’ve had trouble concentrating and felt mentally foggy (I actually told Josh I thought I’d gotten stupider over the past couple years)? The up-tick in anxiety and anger? Check, check, and check. I can’t tell you what it means to have confirmation that something is wrong with me, a mechanism that ties most of the symptoms that bother me together under one roof, and validation that it’s not just all in my head.

2. My arthritis is killing me. I have always called it being double-jointed, but I’m sure there’s an actual term for what happens when my knee cap dislocates and slides to the side of my leg before popping back into place. That happened enough when I was a kid/teen that I had an MRI after a particularly painful episode. All that popping in and out of place had already worn each meniscus down to nothing, and that was at 15. The doctor diagnosed me at that point with degenerative arthritis, and beginning in my early twenties when we moved to Oxford, my knees have bothered me off and on. Usually, it’s a constant, low level of pain that I don’t even notice anymore, but in the past couple weeks, I have been in almost unremitting agony while sitting or lying down. The only time my knees have ever hurt this bad was when I was pregnant with Emma; your joints soften in pregnancy so your hips can be pushed farther apart, which translated into me being on crutches and/or Josh having to carry me down stairs for a couple months of the first trimester. I kinda don’t know what to do. I am really resistant to the idea of just taking painkillers all day every day. But I’m rapidly losing patience with this level of pain.

3. Fiona has formally been diagnosed with asthma. At her follow-up chest X-Ray, the pneumonia was gone, but her lungs were still very congested. We now are doing two breathing treatments per day until she’s old enough to operate an inhaler successfully. This started on Sunday, and it’s been a mixed bag. It’s an inhaled steroid, and the first day, it made her wild. She’s calmed down and is getting used to it, I think, but she’s not quite herself. On the plus side, she’s sleeping so much better. She’s quit coughing at night since we started this regimen.

4. I have questions/concerns about where The Walking Dead is going to go from here. SPOILERS )

5. Gotham was sooooo good last night. SPOILERS )

6. I realize this may be an unpopular opinion, but I very unironically enjoy The Big Bang Theory, and I’ve been thinking about where the show will go next. I’ve decided it’s babies! I think the show is going to have either Penny or Bernadette get pregnant. *rubs hands together gleefully*
lunabee34: (cthuhlu santa by angstpuppy)
1. I received cards from [ profile] talitha78, [personal profile] devon (+ bat stickers, yay!), [ profile] kaleecat, [personal profile] zulu (and [personal profile] bell and the blob!), [personal profile] lyr, and [ profile] crazydiamondsue (and Caza and Jonah!). Thanks, y'all.

2. For Yuletide, I wrote Happily Ever After, a Shaun/Georgia post-canon fic for Mira Grant's Newsflesh series. Once again, I was gifted with the most amazing prompt and the option to choose between fandoms to write for. I had a lot of fun writing this story, and I hope my recipient had half as much fun reading it. :)

3. I feel like the overall quality in the archive is super high this Yuletide. I have liked almost everything I've clicked on this year. Only several hundred more fics to go in 46 fandoms. (One of these days, I must abandon my scraps of paper approach to Yuletide and just bookmark them to read on AO3 like any sensible person *cough* Executrix *cough*).

4. We had a hella good Christmas haul this year. Our big item was a stand mixer. Whoooo! Emma got several DS9 action figures which has put her over the moon. :) Fiona has a baby doll. A baby doll WITH A PACY JUST LIKE HER PACY OMG IT IS A REVELATION!

5. I just finished writing my online class for the spring. Lord, that's a lot of work on the front end. It's not dissimilar to writing a textbook.

6. So, the ovarian failure test came back negative. Doesn't mean I'm not perimenopausal; just means that because I'm on birth control we don't know what the results mean. In more definitive diagnosis news, apparently I have Hashimoto's Disease, an autoimmune disorder that affects the thyroid. We're still in the observing stage, so nothing to do for it now, but TAKE THAT, BODY! I KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG. HA! Urine test is still pending because I didn't have time to sit around here all day and refrigerate each pee before we left for the holidays.

7. In sad news, one of my students was murdered this past spring by another student, and the newspaper just printed an article about the circumstances of his murder, and it was really fucked up and horrible (as you might imagine) and now I feel disturbed and sad. :(
lunabee34: (sga: kavanaugh by prone_tastic)
1. I am already being inundated with a constant stream of emails from students about their grades. "I expected to get a B," "I have to pass this class, or I will get kicked out of school," "I did so much better on the last essay; why am I still failing." Well, when you get a zero on an essay, there's pretty much no coming back from that. Or when you start out writing barely passing essays but progress to B-level writing by the end of the semester, that's a huge feat you should be proud of, but the first essays you wrote still count; that's why you have a C. I don't know why because this kind of whining from students is par for the course, but it's irritating me much more than usual this time around.

2. I went to the endocrinologist Monday. Best doctor's appointment ever. This might be the only time the actual doctor has spent like thirty minutes talking to me, taking my history, examining me. I am really impressed with this practice. The doc is pretty sure my symptoms are part of perimenopause. So, she is testing me for ovarian failure with a very sensitive test with the warning that even if I am perimenopausal, the test may still read negative because I am on birth control. She ruled out any thyroid issues at this point with the caveat that I will need to be vigilant in having that periodically tested because of my mom's history. She said there are a handful of weird and rare endocrine issues that could be responsible for my symptoms, so I have to do a 24 hour urine collection which is about as fun as it sounds. All the pee, all the day long! LOL And there's a whole list of things you can't consume during the 24 hour period like caffeine, alcohol, citrus. I will starve and dehydrate! LOL Anyway, I hope that one of these tests tells me something.


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