lunabee34: (beneath me by jjjean65)
lunabee34 ([personal profile] lunabee34) wrote2005-04-18 10:50 am

Lorraine tried to download some gay porn, but her computer

was way too slow. :(

This got me to thinking about something that I promise is related to porn in a weird way. Before I started reading fanfiction, I never found Angel or Xander physically attractive. *steels herself for the rocks and tomatoes sure to be flying her way* Spike I always found attractive; ditto Doyle; ditto, gulp, Giles (I mean, Giles singing "Free Bird?" C'mon Southern gals unite!).

As I started reading fanfiction, I developed this kinda idealized image of really all the characters, even the ones I already found attractive. So now, when I read, I'm not imagining David Boreanz or Nick Brendon really, but something I've sorta invented. I'm comparing it in my head to the difference in experience I have with reading porn and watching porn, but I'm not really sure that works either.

Does anybody else do this or am I just slap!nuts? And if you do, what do you think it means, if anything, other than that I've found a way to enjoy characters I didn't necessarily find attractive when I was watching the show?

And does anybody else have a different experience watching porn and reading it? I'm gonna have to base this part of the question on watching het porn cause computer NOT WORKING!!!!!!!!!! to allow me to expand my porn horizons. For instance, I enjoy watching oral sex smutty goodness as much as I like reading it, but not so much with the penetrative part. Does that make sense?

Lorraine says goodnight and changes search terms to gay porn *stills*

[identity profile] sweet-exile.livejournal.com 2005-04-18 11:04 am (UTC)(link)
I guess I kind of do. You see I never found JM very attractive especially towards the end of Buffy. I like Season 2 Spike, that's because he's evil and I'm sick and twisted that way. But paired with Xander he's very hot. Also I prefer Angelus to Angel, it's the leather trousers and has much better dialogue.

I supose it's always going to be a question of how the story is written and your own experience. In the end though there is nothing wrong with using your imagination that is what's it's there for.

Wes will always be my favourite though.
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[identity profile] lunabee34.livejournal.com 2005-04-18 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
We must be twisted the same way, sister. Cause Lorraine is in lurve with the Big Bad. *smirk*

And I completely agree with the Angelus assessment. Although Angelus is slap!nuts he's just so damn sexy. *whispers* I think it's also the smoking. I know it's wrong, but smoking is sexy.

Re: smoking

[identity profile] sweet-exile.livejournal.com 2005-04-18 07:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Only when pretty immortal vampires do it. Regular mortals hacking their lungs up of a morning is not sexy.

Glad I'm not the only twisted one here.
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Re: smoking

[identity profile] lunabee34.livejournal.com 2005-04-19 01:46 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I know. *wistful sigh* Nicotine..... :)
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[identity profile] jjjean65.livejournal.com 2005-04-18 11:18 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, Lorraine!!

Being the perverted deviant that I am if you send me snail mail I'll be happy to post you some porn on vcd - video and stills (pimp)Plus visit my Man Page for ever changing pics (/pimp)

As for slash - I started with Highlander, Methos aka Peter Wingfield is just it for me. Though I always remember with a shock when I first saw The Sentinel after reading a tonne of fanfic - I couldn't believe how butch Blair was as opposed to the fannon version of him.

Meh.
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[identity profile] lunabee34.livejournal.com 2005-04-18 06:08 pm (UTC)(link)
First of all, porn--Hell yeah! and Woohoo! *runs to email you*

What is the URL for your man page? I didn't notice that on your website.

I totally understand what you mean about how fannon versions of characters come to dominate either the fandom or your own perceptions of the character. Glad this is not just me.
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[identity profile] jjjean65.livejournal.com 2005-04-18 09:09 pm (UTC)(link)
The Man Page is listed in my lj links but the actual site url is http://motd.editions.tripod.com. The 8 pics change every Thursday and Sunday night.

The pics are various from nudes, cartoons, manga, to just hot sexy studs... not necessarily gay shots though there are some 'action' pics in the albums

[identity profile] nashmaveric.livejournal.com 2005-04-18 04:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I always fancied Xander. He's just my type actually ::grin:: Dark and brown-eyed with the pretty smile and the wide shoulders....Where was I? Oh yeah. Xander. Hot. ::grin:: Fanfic did get me to fancy Angel though. For some reason David Boreanaz doesn't do it for me. Or he didn't. Now he kinda does. But not always.

Aaaaanyhow, having watched gay porn (purely for research reasons of course ::snicker::) I think sometimes the written words are hotter than the moving images. Of course, that could be cause porn overall? Cheesy as fuck. And the writers on my flist? Talented as fuck!
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[identity profile] lunabee34.livejournal.com 2005-04-18 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Research purposes. Of course. Why else why I be lusting after, I mean searching for, gay porn? *giggle snort*

You are so right about porn as a genre. The music sucks, the actors (ha ha) often look like they were found behind the Dumpster of an ancient Dairy Queen's and either they moan enthusiastically yet unconvincingly, or they remain stoically silent throughout the whole thing which is just plain weird. I don't know what I think about gay porn , because I haven't watched any yet. LOL I think [livejournal.com profile] jjjean65's gonna hook me up though.

Glad I'm not the only one who's perceptions of characters have been altered by fanfic.
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[personal profile] spikedluv 2005-04-21 04:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm a little late to the party *g*, but I couldn't resist adding my $.02.

I don't think I imagine the characters differently than they appear on the screen, though I do choose to imagine them in the look I like best. For instance, Ats season 5 Angel, so not my Angel. *g* And I love the later Wes, tough and scruffy, though still sensitive, of course. LOL I don't picture BtVS season 6 & 7 Xander even when I'm reading season 6 or 7 fic, 'cause I loved early Xander, when he was so boyishly charming and clumsy and, well, hot. *vbg* So, yeah, very much idealized, but based on what we've seen on screen...at some point.
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[identity profile] lunabee34.livejournal.com 2005-04-21 05:35 pm (UTC)(link)
*adds your $.02 to the change jar*

I think what I am realizing is that I don't really visualize at all when I read, or very little. I know that sounds super weird, and I'm probably in the minority, but this is true of everything I read. I just don't often create a picture in my head as I'm reading. Obviously, I know what's going on in the plot, etc. But as I'm writing this, I'm wondering how it's possible for me to know without "seeing" it in my mind's eye.

I think you should completely disregard this comment as it is apparently the insane ramblings of madwoman. *g*

I like early Xander better than end of the series Xander as well. I like mid-point Angel the best I think. I was watching some early BtVS and it struck me how thin and pale DB was. I like him better in the first couple seasons of Angel when he's more filled out and his skin is a more normal color.