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Let's plumb the depths of my ambivalence
Feb. 9th, 2013 11:27 amSo, my dearest hive mind, I need your help. My two BFFs want to throw me a shower. They are excited about doing this, and it is very sweet. And yet, I have many many feels about this issue that I didn't anticipate. Let me lay it all out for you, and then y'all tell me what you think I should do.
1. This is a second baby. I kinda think it's tacky as hell to have a shower for a second baby. Although I usually make exceptions for that in the case of multiples (because hello, you still need one more of everything) or large age-gaps between children (who keeps baby shit for ten years LOL), I still feel weird about having one despite the age gap between Emma and Trashboat.
2. We are being given/loaned a great deal of baby stuff from my sister-in-law, and it feels kinda greedy to have a shower, too.
3. All our family lives very far away, and I don't think they'd come to the shower, or if they did, they'd all want to stay at my house which would annoy me as we only have one guest room. There is a very convenient hotel which would be ideal, but my family invented the concept of cheap, and I don't know if they'd stay there. It seems kinda purpose-defeaty for me to be the one to rent hotel rooms for everyone for a party where they're supposed to give me things. IDK
4. We don't know a lot of people outside of work. Most of the people we know from work are acquaintances. I feel very uncomfortable inviting people that I am not good friends with to a party whose ostensible purpose is to give me presents. LOL I feel equally uncomfortable inviting the three-ish people I think would like to come and not inviting anyone else we work with because somebody is sure to get their feelings hurt (though I can't predict who that would be). My options here seem to be pretty much blanket inviting everyone we work with or specifically inviting a small handful, both of which seem super problematic to me.
Y'all, I think I just really don't want to have a shower. It fills me with anxiety, which I think is the opposite of what my friends are going for here. Am I being ridiculous? What do you think I should do?
1. This is a second baby. I kinda think it's tacky as hell to have a shower for a second baby. Although I usually make exceptions for that in the case of multiples (because hello, you still need one more of everything) or large age-gaps between children (who keeps baby shit for ten years LOL), I still feel weird about having one despite the age gap between Emma and Trashboat.
2. We are being given/loaned a great deal of baby stuff from my sister-in-law, and it feels kinda greedy to have a shower, too.
3. All our family lives very far away, and I don't think they'd come to the shower, or if they did, they'd all want to stay at my house which would annoy me as we only have one guest room. There is a very convenient hotel which would be ideal, but my family invented the concept of cheap, and I don't know if they'd stay there. It seems kinda purpose-defeaty for me to be the one to rent hotel rooms for everyone for a party where they're supposed to give me things. IDK
4. We don't know a lot of people outside of work. Most of the people we know from work are acquaintances. I feel very uncomfortable inviting people that I am not good friends with to a party whose ostensible purpose is to give me presents. LOL I feel equally uncomfortable inviting the three-ish people I think would like to come and not inviting anyone else we work with because somebody is sure to get their feelings hurt (though I can't predict who that would be). My options here seem to be pretty much blanket inviting everyone we work with or specifically inviting a small handful, both of which seem super problematic to me.
Y'all, I think I just really don't want to have a shower. It fills me with anxiety, which I think is the opposite of what my friends are going for here. Am I being ridiculous? What do you think I should do?
