It's Wednesday, probably
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2. In addition to upping the Synthroid, I upped my Topamax dose to 100mg at the beginning of this week. So I feel weird, anxious, and stupid--not to the degree that I did when I initially began taking the med, thank goodness. I've been on 75mg for at least a year now, maybe longer, so there have been no repeats of the interminable "I need a spoon. But no really I need a spoon. Did you have a spoon?" conversation, and I am not a danger to drive like I was during the original titration weeks. But I am, as they say, emotionally labile and panicky and I'm ready for this adjustment period to be over.
3. Yuletide comes along nicely. I always get the best recipients with the best ideas and prompts. I have never left the writing so late as I have this year; I generally like to have it in early, but I feel good about the story, and my goal is to get it uploaded today or tomorrow.
4. I am resigning myself to just not really having a break this winter. I had a meeting yesterday; I'm driving to one of our campuses today to give a presentation to the Foundation. I have to rewrite an online class and write a graduate internship (it's the pilot graduate internship for our department) for spring deployment. I'm just tired. Sigh.
5. I don't want to do the sign up for a specific day thing, but ask me a question (fannish or personal) or give me a topic on which to pontificate, and I will do so at some point. :)
Shitposting, Saturday edition
Oct. 2nd, 2021 08:02 am( grilled cheese, fannish opinions, Babylon 5, icecream, the classic that isn't, thrifting )
what light through yonder window breaks?
Jul. 25th, 2021 07:16 am2. Emma is clearing out her room *sob*, so I have two coloring books free to good home: one is called Detailed Designs and Patterns and the other is Dot-to-Dot Therapy. Let me know if you want them, and I'll shoot them to you media mail.
3.
( spoilers for second book of Coldfire trilogy )
4. What's the nicest thing a stranger/random person/someone you didn't know well ever did for you?
5. Rec me something. Any category: book, food, notebook, website, flower to smell, whatever. :)
i get my britches down in georgia*
Jul. 13th, 2021 07:46 am2. Took Emma for the first of several getting ready for college shopping trips and we found clothes that she liked and which fit her. Hooray! Poor bb. Aesthetically she is into men's clothes, but she's got the tits and the hips her mama gave her, so shopping is generally frustrating to her.
3. I don't really have anything to say, but I want to talk to you guys. :) <3 So ask me a question or two! Anything goes. I do love to hear myself talk. *g*
*my current favorite mondegreen
mumble mumble saturday
Feb. 13th, 2021 10:47 am2. Valentine's Day cards from
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3. Shitpollsting results:
You have all voted Bashir the hottest doc with McCoy and Crusher tied for second place. McCoy wins the honors of the best/most effective doctor with no one else even coming close.
The overwhelming majority of you are not interested in my totally valid and yummy cheese concoction *sniff*, but you are all adventurous with your pizza toppings! There is hope for you yet! Hurrah!
Shitpollsting ahoy!
Feb. 11th, 2021 08:40 amHottest Star Trek doctor is
McCoy
9 (28.1%)
Crusher
9 (28.1%)
Pulaski
0 (0.0%)
Bashir
13 (40.6%)
Hologram doc
0 (0.0%)
doc on Enterprise
0 (0.0%)
doc on Discovery
1 (3.1%)
a totally different doc I will tell about about in comments
0 (0.0%)
Most effective/best Star Trek doctor is
McCoy
16 (51.6%)
Crusher
6 (19.4%)
Pulaski
0 (0.0%)
Bashir
1 (3.2%)
Hologram doc
6 (19.4%)
doc on Enterprise
0 (0.0%)
doc on Discovery
1 (3.2%)
a totally different doc I will tell you about in comments
1 (3.2%)
Mixing yellow mustard with soy sauce and dipping cheddar cheese in it
Why do you tell us these things, Lorraine? Why?
25 (80.6%)
An inspired snack. Thanks for the pro-tip.
6 (19.4%)
These things belong on a pizza
pineapple
22 (61.1%)
anchovies
15 (41.7%)
mushrooms
25 (69.4%)
herbs
25 (69.4%)
bacon
17 (47.2%)
barbecue
6 (16.7%)
alfredo sauce
10 (27.8%)
seafood
12 (33.3%)
fruit
5 (13.9%)
OMG, sauce, cheese and maybe a pepperoni; that's it
13 (36.1%)
Talking Meme
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18 year old me was deeply ambitious and driven, intensely competitive, and super insecure. 18 year old me was a poet, a writer, who was going to be published soon. 18 year old me was rebellious; growing up in a repressive, fundamentalist household made me eager to be free and make my own choices.
I think past me would be very happy with where I have ended up in my career, but I think she would be surprised by how I've mellowed over the years. I am still ambitious and driven, but I am no longer obnoxious levels of competitive. I shudder to think at how irritating I must have been as a teen. In grad school, I decided that it was not feasible to do All the Things, and so my goal became to figure out the minimum amount of effort I needed to put into any activity to achieve the results I want. Granted, my minimum is often pretty high, but I'm not making myself sick trying to go above and beyond on every single thing.
I'm also not insecure anymore. Past me really wanted to be liked and wanted to be cool and edgy, and current me has accepted that I am never going to be cool and edgy. I am a middle-aged mom who goes to bed at 9:15 every night, and that's fine. I really value the friendships I have and don't worry about how popular I am or am not.
I think past me would be disappointed that I haven't published a novel or a collection of poems; to be honest, current me is pretty disappointed by that as well. But now me is really proud of my academic publications.
I think past me would also be dismayed by how much my upbringing still scars me. I have spent my entire adult life craving approval from my parents that is never going to come. I have felt so much anxiety and hurt from interacting with them at different times. They have been so ugly to me at various points over the years, and yet they also have been incredibly loving and generous. It's a terrible and confusing mix. Past me thought I would escape and be shed of it all; I'd find some spiritual practice that wasn't Christianity, and I'd live the life I wanted, and I'd never look back. Past me didn't realize that intellectually disbelieving that God punishes people for thinking the wrong things doesn't mean I won't still be emotionally afraid of that punishment. Basically, my upbringing and my family relationships are a big old mess that past me would be shocked that I haven't just figured out already. LOL
February is for stuff I love!
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2. To that end, have a couple of recs:
Heaven, Earth, and the Song That Knits Them Up by
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Moths--Ouida
Corrèze/Vere
I continue to be utterly delighted that somebody besides me read and now loves this book. This is a very sweet post-canon interlude.
Necromancin' Dancin' [VID]
Locked Tomb vid made with fanart. This is really kickass.
3. Talking Meme
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The primary change is genre. As a teen, I mostly wrote poetry. I wrote some short stories as a kid and a pre-teen, but by the time I hit my teenage years, I was exclusively writing poetry. Ditto for undergrad. Then I got to grad school. Not only was the reading load overwhelming, I got pregnant with Emma that first year. I quit writing creatively entirely--no poetry, no stories, no nothing except academic writing. Then I found fandom in late 2004, and by 2005 I was writing fanfic. Fanfic and academic writing have been the only writing I've done for most of that 16 year period (with a couple of short stories and the beginning of a novel thrown in there). In 2019, I started actively trying to write poetry again with some success, but I haven't gotten inspired or hit by the muse. It's definitely still a sit down and make myself write some poetry kinda thing at this point. But I have been regularly reading poetry, and I'm hoping that I will eventually get back into the poetry groove.
I also want to say here how much I love academic writing. Which is a good thing since that's my job. LOL But I'm good at it, and I enjoy it, and I'm so grateful for that.
And the week begins again
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My rating: 4 of 5 stars
I think this is a good manual for someone who is new to online teaching. I think I disagree with Riggs about how to conduct online discussions, but I need to sit with it awhile and ponder whether I'm just having a knee jerk reaction to being told I'm doing it wrong LOL or whether she has a point.
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My rating: 4 of 5 stars
Shay Youngblood was one of the Writers in Residence when I was in grad school at Ole Miss, but I didn't get to interact with her very much.
This collection of short stories is told from the POV of a pre-teen African American girl living in the Deep South in the late 60s, early 70s. The voice is pitch perfect; I've heard people talking this way my whole life.
It's a hard book to read in places (racial and sexual violence, incest, consensual incest), but it's also a funny book and full depictions of kindness and community.
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4. Talking Meme
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I could give many answers to this question, but I think I am going to choose Peter Elbow's Writing without Teachers.
( writing and writing pedagogy )
This week = sticker extravaganza!
Jan. 26th, 2021 02:03 pm2. A sticker set I ordered arrived today, and they are so adorable. I expected them to be cute, but I didn't realize they would be so thin which is awesome since I am mostly going to put them in my journal.
3. Talking Meme:
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I will confine the first two questions to my immediate family. I love quinoa, beets, turnips, and couscous (which is sadly off the table for me now due to celiac); my kids and husband despise them. I truly do not hate any food. I pretty much like everything. I am a very adventurous eater.
I love condiments. As a kid, I loved mixing the condiments in the fridge to make new condiments. My favorite condiments are soy sauce, fish sauce, all kinds of hot sauces, mayo, and Dijon mustard.
I love avocados. I love to cut them in half, pour a little lemon juice in the hole left by the seed, sprinkle a little salt, and eat them out of the bowl of their skin with a spoon.
Pineapple on pizza is a yes. Although I mostly don't do pizza anymore because of celiac. There are some goodish gluten free pizzas, but nothing compares to a real pizza.
Talking Meme
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Talking Meme
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*cracks knuckles*
( my teaching history )
Talking meme
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( Emily Bronte )
( Wilkie Collins )
( Dickens )
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I guess The Warden by Trollope. I feel terrible labelling it the worst because there's nothing really wrong with it; I just find it very boring. It did not speak to me.
two for tuesday
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I have really enjoyed a handful of the BPAL fragrances I've tried (Incantation comes to mind as a particular favorite), some I liked to start with (more for the novelty, I think; this smells exactly like dirt; how cool!) and then cooled on, and the vast majority were not keepers for me from the initial sniff. So, basically, like all the perfume I've tried. LOL
Tangentially related, I have so much excellent new perfume (mostly via
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2. Today was super productive; I worked from 7:30 to 2:30 in the office, and I got so much done. I had lowkey been angsting about how I hadn't done any work for the committee I chair over the break, and getting lots of items crossed off my list today has helped me banish that. I'm not sure if I'll keep going in when I don't have to for the whole semester, but for now it feels really nice to get some work done.
and the new week begins
Jan. 17th, 2021 07:54 am2. Talking meme
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Josh was way ahead of me in terms of making internet friends. Starting in about 1999-2000, he became super involved in AOL chatrooms and made a couple friends there that have lasted, both of whom he has gone to visit and have come to visit us over the years. So he understands my fandom friends are real friends and has never been derisive about it the way some spouses who are not in fandom can unfortunately be. He's met a few of my online friends (
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This is only tangentially related to the question, but I wish I could get him interested in writing. He is so witty and funny; I think he would be a really good writer of fiction or creative nonfiction, but he is negative percent interested. LOL Which is fine. I just think we're all missing out. His Iron Fist crack fic would take the fandom by storm!
3.

My rating: 5 of 5 stars
This is absolutely fantastic. Moers has a very engaging authorial voice, and the book is fun to read.
I especially enjoyed learning more about Max Beerbohm as he wrote one of the few pieces of criticism on Ouida (More 1899).
My one criticism is that Moers doesn't translate any of the extensive French quotes she includes.
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Quarantine is over!
Jan. 15th, 2021 07:43 amI know it was hard on Josh, but I think this is a testament to how well he isolated from us.
I'm ready for things to get back to our normal around here.
2. Emma got accepted to Georgia Southern University! I fully anticipate that she will be accepted to all the schools where she applied, but this is an excellent start. So proud of her.
3. I got a beautiful card from
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4. McFarland finally listed the book with my chapter on Ouida and technology: The Rail, the Body, and the Pen.
5. My JetPens order arrived! I haven't played around with the inks yet (seven bottles of ink! hurrah!) because I want to write my pens dry before I change the ink, but I messed around a little with the Tomoe River paper notebook I bought, and OMG, all the hype is true. I tested all my currently inked pens plus other pens like fineliners and gel pens. The only thing that bled through was the Penmark marker. The truly exciting thing is that I have seen my first sheen!!!! The Pilot Parallel takes proprietary cartridges, and it's got a purple in it right now. I had no idea that ink is sheening, but it has a lovely green sheen. I literally squealed when I saw it. Can't wait to dig into the inks.
6. Talking Meme
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Doomsday craves my vitals now*
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My absolute favorite trope of all time is pining. Love it. I love it when Draco is pining for Harry and thinks he's never going to be worthy of him and everyone cries a lot. All the angst and all the sadness for me. I do prefer it when they get together in the end, but it's not a deal breaker for me.
I love crossovers, especially the really clever ones that integrate the two worlds successfully with a minimum of suspension of disbelief.
I love time travel. I don't need it to be "scientifically plausible" or make a lot of sense. I'm already suspending my disbelief for time travel, so the mechanics of how it works are not super important to me. It's an excellent vehicle for angst and simultaneously for fixing whatever is wrong in canon.
Also really like pretending to date for whatever reasons and marriage of convenience/arranged marriage/forced marriage. Those scenarios tend to lead to the slow burn I really enjoy in fic.
2. So a couple of days ago, Fiona and I were in the yard and noticed a brown thrasher, the fluffiest and plumpest one I'd ever seen, rooting around in the leaves. It was so cute throwing the leaves up with its beak and eating the uncovered bugs. It let us get really close to it while talking and also not stepping quietly. I think maybe it can't fly. IDK But it has no problem with proximity to people. It was back in the yard again yesterday, so I think maybe we have a yard pet (until the owls or hawks or foxes eat it). Fiona has named the bird Wobbles.
3. I got a Christmas card from decynthus!
*courtesy of William Venable's poem "Saga of the Oak"
good morning, circle
Jan. 4th, 2021 08:11 am2. Poetry Jam 2020 is officially over! I really enjoyed this year of focusing more intensely on poetry. I read and wrote more poetry in this single year than in all the fifteen combined. I am so glad
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3. Talking meme
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