lunabee34: (sg1: gate b/w by catharsis_o_s)
[personal profile] lyr asked me: What's your little black dress fandom? You know, that fandom you find yourself trying to crossover with everything else - whether you actually write it or not.

I have several answers to this seemingly uncomplicated question. :)

In terms of writing, I am most compelled to crossover the Gateverse with all the fandoms ever. I really enjoyed figuring out how to mesh together the worlds of SG-1 and SPN in my Through the Rabbit Hole 'verse because so many elements of each source canon align very neatly.

In terms of reading, Gateverse and HP are the two fandoms I always search for new crossover fics. Gateverse crosses over so well with procedurals like NCIS because of the military/law enforcement connection. It also crosses over well with canons that are magical, like Buffy or SPN, and canons that are sci-fi based, like Star Trek or BSG. HP obviously works well with canons that contain magic, but I really enjoy when HP is crossed over with canons that aren't magical because part of the fun is A) watching the non-magical characters discover that magic is real and seeing how they deal with that revelation or B) exploring how the non-magical characters might behave if they were magical.

I think crossovers get an undeserved bad rap; I admit that the more fandoms involved in the crossover, the less cohesive the story is likely to be, and I don't enjoy reading those monolithic SuperWhoLockTrekVengers crossovers because they are ridiculous. I also think it's less difficult to cross over fandoms that are very different from each other than might be apparent. I get a great deal of satisfaction out of a crossover that neatly aligns elements from each canon (the Goa'uld have glowing yellow eyes? the demon who killed your mom has glowing yellow eyes?), but I also enjoy really unexpected canon choices, like Murder She Wrote + SGA (Jessica Fletcher is Rodney's aunt).

What do y'all think about crossovers?
lunabee34: (are those men kissing? by animekittysama)
So, as you all know, I'm a NOTPer. I don't ship in the classical sense of the word. I am interested in lots of different pairings, and if a writer can sell it (no matter how unconventional the pairing may be), I will totally buy it with glee. I also enjoy writing rare pairs; so, for instance, in SGA, I'm just as likely to write Bates/Kavanagh as I am John/Rodney and to read Teyla/Sora as John/Elizabeth.

All this lead-up to say that I just realized I do kinda ship within the canonicity of the show. Oh, this wine makes the talking to be hard. LOL Let me give you some examples. When I watch episodes of SPN, I think Sam and Dean are totally straight. I don't really see canonical evidence to the contrary, and while I am sitting on my couch watching the show, I am rooting for Dean to figure out some way to be with Lisa and wishing Sam could have totally hot demony sex with Ruby again. But when I read and write fic for the show, I pair the two of them all over the place: with each other, with Castiel, with Ash (heee!). Or take NCIS. While watching the show, I am all about the Tony/Ziva. Love it. I have a hard time shipping Gibbs with anybody. He seems pretty much asexual to me; I think he gave up on that part of his life when his wife died, and any hints that canon gives us for relationships with him are all straight. But I can totally dig some Tony/Gibbs or Tony/Tim or Tony/Abby or whatever. Spander is another good example. I cut my fannish teeth on Spike/Xander, and I adore the pairing, but to me it makes absolutely no sense from a canonical standpoint. Or Harry/Draco. At any given point, I am more likely to be reading a Harry/Draco fic than anything else there is to read, and yet I never ever would have pegged that to be the dominant pairing of the fandom after finishing the series.

Does anybody else do this? Have kind of a disconnect between what seems plausible to you while watching the show or reading the book and what you want to read/write for fanfic? One set of ships for consuming the media and other set of ships for behaving fannishly about them?

(Caveats: Obviously subtext exists to some degree for all the pairings I've mentioned (even if it's just one arch look in one episode and a half season spent sharing a basement sullenly) and YMMV on that; not raining on anybody's subtext parade here. Also not saying that an unconventional ship can't be canonically compatible; in fact, that's the kind I like to read and write the most.)
lunabee34: (sg1: gate b/w by catharsis_o_s)
So, I'm writing this SG-1 story right now. It was going to be a 5 Things story called "Loose Ends" that reveals what happens in plot points the show just drops or to characters that sort of disappear, but the first vignette is already at 1500 words, so I think I'll probably write five separate fics and connect them as a series.

Here's my question for y'all: this first fic is about Joseph Faxon, the ambassador that we see Sam married to in the AU future and who gets left behind in this timeline on Volian after SG-1 discovers the Aschen's sterility plan. The fic can end one of two ways; both are plausible to me given canon and the story I've created for this character. So, how do I choose between equally plausible story arcs? How do you handle this in your fics?

Or you know, you can just vote Plot A or Plot B, and the most votes wins. LOL
lunabee34: (are those men kissing? by animekittysama)
I haven't posted here in forever, and I miss talking to y'all! Like a lot. Soooooooo, talking points.

1. I am a bit stalled out on my Phil/Clint epic mpreg story because they have finally stopped misunderstanding each other (for the most part) and are now on to the happy!bliss part of the classic h/c, aaaaaaaaand I do not give a shit about the comfort part of that trope at all, I realize. (or much of one, anyway; there are always exceptions) Give me misunderstandings of such magnitude that the suspension of disbelief required to make them happen and then perpetuate them is almost beyond human capacity, and I'm totally cool with it. Give me searing angst and confusion and deep sadness, and you have a happy Lorraine. When all that's over and the domestic joy part sets in? Apparently I have no idea how to write that, and I'm really concerned about the story just nose-diving in quality. We've all read a story that's dripping in tension and ooey gooey yummy anticipation, and then the characters start lounging on each other for twenty chapters and calling each other Snuggle Bunny and writing sestinas to each other's chocolate orbs. I do love domestic fic, and I do love kidfic; I just think I don't know how to write them. Or maybe the issue is that I don't know how to end this fic gracefully now that the major conflicts are over. I don't want to end too abruptly, and I know a great many of my readers are there for the happy!bliss part, and I don't want to shortchange them. Any advice?

2. We finished watching Fullmetal Alchemist, and wow. So very, very disturbing and so very, very good. I was very surprised by the ending, and I wonder if Brotherhood picks up where FMA left off, or if it's something else entirely.

3. Wreck-It Ralph was very cute. I was thoroughly entertained. Jane Lynch is a goddess.

4. You know you have been trawling old HP archives for too long when you seriously consider clicking on the Ron/Scabbers smutlet.

5. Present ideas for a ten year old geek? Emma has informed me that she's got enough books for now (and she totally does; she's got two shelves full of books she hasn't read yet, and she's working steadily through them, but not in dire straights at the moment) and that she has no burning desire for any gifts. "I'm pretty good right now," she says. LOL
lunabee34: (cool lesbians by jjjean65)
I've got more than 2000 words of Darcy and Jane not doing it. They snark, they emote, they hurt and they are comforted.

But after spending the past month with a person who had emergency surgery, apparently my Reality Check-o-meter will not allow me to write post-op end of the world sexy times. LOL

Sequels are for sexing, right?
lunabee34: (Ouida by ponders_life)
[livejournal.com profile] the_emu has a fascinating post about writing HERE. [livejournal.com profile] the_emu is currently serially posting a story; the story is complete, but ze's using the interim between chapters to tweak and edit the unposted portions of the story in response to audience feedback.

This post got me to thinking about serial writing and posting of fic.

The very first fanfic I wrote was a Big Bang length Spike/Xander that I wrote out longhand on legal pads, typed up, edited, and then thought—How do I go about getting this onto the internet with all the other fanfic? LOL I posted the whole thing to a Yahoo listserv, met a handful of people who introduced me to livejournal, and set up shop over here.

The first thing I noticed on lj circa 2005 was that everyone seemed to be posting long fic serially—a part each week or each day or sometimes according to no discernable schedule at all. And so when I started my next long fic, I wrote and posted it serially as well.

After I’d posted a few chapters, I definitely could see the draw of posting a story this way. Posting serially generates a lot of energy and excitement for both reader and writer.

cut for length )

So now I want to know what you think. How do you feel about serial writing and posting of fic as a writer, as a reader, or as both? What are the pros and cons? Have you done it yourself, and if so, how did that experience compare to posting a fully edited story? Talk to me about writing!
lunabee34: (reading by thelastgoodname)


ETA: Ahahaahahahaha. This Auto-Transcribe shit makes me sound way smarter than I am.

ETA: It's like babelfish.

ETA: Or a tone poem.
lunabee34: (btvs: spike n dru by hsapiens)
It's a lazy, rainy night, and I'm thinking about BtVS. I'm thinking about the Buffyverse because some kind soul recced one of my stories from last year in [livejournal.com profile] buffyversetop5, and that got me to thinking about [livejournal.com profile] maleslashminis and how much I really enjoyed participating in that comm last year. I also happened to catch a few episodes of the show on LOGO this week--events all conspiring to make me very nostalgic for my first fandom.

One of the things I liked so much about [livejournal.com profile] maleslashminis was that it forced me to be really creative and think about canon in new and interesting ways. I'd never have written Ben/Xander on my own or Giles/Jayne or even Graham/Riley. I liked the uncertain nature of the request, the fact that I never knew exactly what my recipient was going to want from a story. I miss that comm. *sniffle*

I met most of you guys in Buffy fandom, and most of you have mostly moved on, I think. We all occasionally foray back into the old stomping grounds, but I think most of us concentrate most of our fannish efforts in other places at this point.

So, I'm wondering--if you're ever nostalgic like me, what's the Buffyverse story that got away? The one you always meant to write but didn't? The one you always wanted to write but didn't think you could? The one you think that time and distance makes nearly impossible to write now? The story you always wanted to read but never found?

I suppose I am asking for writing prompts in a way, but even more than that, I am endlessly fascinated by the stories that we hold close to our hearts but never quite manage to commit to paper. Also, bored now, and talking good. :)
lunabee34: (Default)
[Poll #1578098]

ETA: I had this whole post to go with this poll and then I accidentally hit return before I could insert that text. *headdesk* So, you know, I'd love to hear your thoughts on reccing--what makes a good one, how important they are to your fannish experience, what irritates you about reccing, and what you'd like to see more of in rec posts.
lunabee34: (fandom is my fandom by laurashapiro)
Apparently there's another round of Mary Sue debate going around, and I wanted to weigh in on the subject.

This is mostly in response to [livejournal.com profile] friendshipper's very cogent response and is in parts a verbatim repetition of my comment to her post.

I'm a professor of English. Writing's my gig. I teach the next generation of newbies how not to sound like complete dumbasses when attempting to communicate an idea. Literature's my thing, too. The good stuff. And not just the old dead white guys. I'm a canon-busting broad.

So please understand me when I say what I'm about to say next.

Go to ff.net. Go to Wraithbait. Type in some search term to delicious. And I guarantee that you're gonna get a hit count of fics that don't live up to your (for general and random senses of "your") standards. And I also guarantee that a preponderance of those fics will have the kind of comment count that makes you go, "Hmmm?"

And here's what I have to say about that (in all my inarticulate, studying for my comps glory):

We Many of us* come to fanfic for other stuff than we come to profic. (And this isn't a discussion of quality either. The best shit I've ever read ever is fanfic and the worst dreck I've ever read was sold on the shelves of a bookstore.) Because fanfic for a lot of us* is about conversation: with the source text, with each other, with ourselves (especially if we choose to write in a fandom more than once). I find myself adoring stories that are about tropes that emotionally resonate with me regardless of the quality of writing. There are narrative arcs that mean something to me (often something quite profound), that satisfy something within in me, that grip me, completely independently of writerly skill. And often Mary Sues are the avenue of exploration for those ideas.

And a lot of us fans are still in our formative years. Who are we? What do we believe? What are our possibilities? And some of us who are past that time in our lives traditionally devoted to experimentation and questioning are also opening to new possibilities, to new scripts. If fanfic is for a lot of us a safe way to think about and explore sexual permutations that we've not had the opportunity to explore in Real Life, who wants to shit on that parade?

And so for me... that's the bottom line. A Mary Sue story isn't necessarily going to be my favorite. I may back button out of that sucker two paragraphs in. But when I realize that this might be someone's id fic in the best sense: his, her, hir struggle to understand him/her/ze self, who the fuck am I to cry foul? It should be celebrated.

(And I'm not trying to ascribe to fanfic powers outside its purview, but I've known too many people, myself included, who as fans who read fanfic were able to explore their sexuality or other avenues of their personalities that weren't otherwise available for exploration in their current lives.]

Does that at all make sense?

[*ETA: I wrote this really late last night after reading an undue amount of Victorian literature and did not mean to imply any such thing as a One True Fandom.]
lunabee34: (hp: trio by mavray)
As I'm certain you are all well aware at this point, I have been using Harry Potter fic to alternately procrastinate and recover from reading for my comps.

I read this story yesterday in which Ron Weasley cries. A lot. Like at least twice every chapter of the story. AND I LIKED IT! *wails* The story, the crying, all of it. I even cried a little myself.

cut for interminability )

So here's where you guys come in. I always think better about this sort of thing in conversation. What do you think about crying as a trope in fic? Tell me everything.
lunabee34: (die hard: that guy by damnednforsaken)
Okay, this story: http://lunabee34.livejournal.com/153013.html

Matt and John want each other, but John is too afraid to take the chance on a relationship. I've read all the tags and we've got "closeted character," but what's the tag that means "screws up this relationship because I'm too afraid of outing myself?" Or does closeted cover that?

*confused*
lunabee34: (meta foucault by jjjean65)
Based on conversations I've been having with you guys after Writercon, I wonder if it might be useful to separate out the question of definitions from some of the other things we've been talking about. I'd be interested to see the range of definitions for these terms laid out clearly.

So, pretend this is Twitter. In 140 characters or less for each, Tweet me your definitions of bob, gen, gron, het, and slash (and any other words you regularly use to label your stories according to sexual or romantic content).
lunabee34: (Default)
I want to finish my formal discussion of the con with a recap of a panel that [livejournal.com profile] executrix moderated.

SLASH: GAY, QUEER, BOTH, NEITHER

Exec was the lone mod and I think she did an enviable job of directing conversational traffic flow. She stepped in with a joke, a reflection, a comment--but mostly what she did was allow the audience to speak.

This is a potentially explosive conversation. A con groups together people from all segments of fandom and society at large, and the possibility for the discussion to descend into hostilities rather than anything useful is monumental. I must say that I was impressed with the group of people attending this panel. There was passion and sincerity and seriousness but also a real effort at bridge building and communal understanding and I have to credit Exec's leadership for making that possible.

Again, this was a panel that raised more issues than it provided answers for.

One of the first things that was mentioned is the propensity of slash to elide the female characters. This is one of the things that irritates me about slash the most. Erasure of female characters does not have to be a convention of m/m slash in the same way that obliterating Angel off the face of the earth isn't necessary to make Buffy/Spike a successful ship. Demonizing, killing off, or simply neglecting to mention canon characters in order to make one's OTP more written in the stars is never cool. Never. Do the extra work and write a story with depth, with nuance, instead of taking the easy route. For many of us, the journey to that non-canonical relationship is more important than the torrid sex anyway.

Someone mentioned that the idea of slash as a genre is problematic. A sexual orientation is not a genre. I agree with this whole heartedly. Like [livejournal.com profile] alixtii, I think the descriptive power of a lot of the labels we use in fandom is pretty much nil at this point, particularly since they are often working at crosspurposes--serving on the one hand as warnings and on the other as advertisements.

Does a canon queer pairing fall under the heading of slash? Or does slash only signify canon subversion? I have to admit that when I first got into fandom, the Old Skool definitions of slash were not readily apparent to newbies and so I just assumed that slash meant same-sex attraction and behavior, regardless of canonicity.

One of the audience members cited slash as a shameful fannish activity and related anecdotal evidence of women who used posted het content to a community under one name and slash content under another in order to escape censure from friends.

WHY DON'T MORE WOMEN AND MORE QUEER WOMEN ESPECIALLY WRITE FEMSLASH???????????
Talk amongst yourselves.

Several people talked about the ways in which queer people's actual lived lives are not reflected in slash stories and there didn't seem to be a consensus on this issue. Some commenters felt like slash does a real disservice by not accurately reflecting the lives of queer people; others felt that as examples of fantasy, slash stories are not beholden to versimilitude. Still others felt like there isn't a Queer Standard of Experience with which to hold fiction up to anyway.

[livejournal.com profile] kindkit brought up the question of creating gay communities in fic. How do you create a gay community for your character without making everyone gay or writing a whole bunch of OCs?

The most important thing that I took away from this panel was something that [livejournal.com profile] callmesandy said: Write what you want, but be prepared to face the consequences. This resonates really powerfully with me. We have no censors and I am so appreciative of that. I'm glad that a wide variety of kinks and opinions get aired on the fannish stage. But by the same token, we must acknowledge that when what turns us on or makes us happy or operates as our status quo is hurtful or appropriative or misogynistic or homophobic or racist, that we can and will be called to responsiblity for what we have written by our peers. I understand that mileage on these issues varies and that true consensus is impossible. But I cannot help but applaud the activism that takes place in our microcosm of society.
lunabee34: (Default)
I'm back from Writercon wehre I had a fantastic time. Thanks for all the well-wishes for Josh. He's doing a lot better; it's still unclear if he has any nerve damage, but he's mobile and the pain is getting more manageable. (As a side note, somebody please write the story about realistic levels of pain for wounds. Sheppard does not just go and go and go after getting shot several times. Just saying.)

I will eventually make a more personal and namedroppy post about the social aspects of Writercon, but I wanted to start with a post about some of the panels I went to before I forget them.

IS FANDOM GONNA HAVE TO CHOKE A BITHC? LANGUAGE AND GENDER IN FANFICTION
Moderator: [livejournal.com profile] mosca
Panelists: [livejournal.com profile] enigmaticblues, Kristina Busse, [livejournal.com profile] denny_dc

This was a really good panel, and as all good weighty discussions should be, one that raised more questions for me than it answered. The panel initially proposed to talk about the language used in the source texts we fan, our own fics, and our fannish socializing and infrastructure. Unfortunately because of time constraints, the last talking point wasn't really covered. I would have loved a conversation on the implications of the language we use when we squee, when we post to comms, when we communicate outside of what our fics have to say. One of the thing things that I have noticed in my fannish interactions is a real shift toward the use of and the awareness of gender neutral pronouns, which I appreciate. Although many of us are women, I have a kneejerk negative reaction to the default assumption that fandom is a wholly feminine space because it feels very exclusionary to me. This does not mean that I do not recognize and celebrate that fandom is a place where women have created power and agency for themselves; it does mean that I am uncomfortable with the narrow definition of fandom as a community that is by, for, and about women.

Back to the panel: Who gets to use sexist language? Can women, in real life interactions and in fic, reclaim sexist language much in the same way that minorities and queer people have reclaimed words used to hurt them? And in mad props to [livejournal.com profile] alixtii for the best question asked at a panel I attended: at one point would language stop being reclamation or an accurate representation of the way a certain character acts or thinks and become mere perpetuation of the problem?

Nina talked about genderfuck stories and said some really interesting things about them.
1. They don't reflect trans reality and aren't really intended to, although that is changing.
2. If a woman is writing, they are often a form of venting about aspects of our lives that we don't like.
3. She read a quote for which I did not catch attribution and couldn't write fast enough to get all down, but essentially, the idea was that womanhood is a thing to be performed, a masquerade, and one of the draws of genderfuck is to transfer desire and expectation onto the male body (the "unmarked body"). Maybe one of y'all can link me to the actual quote used?
4. Nina also discussed the homophobia, misogyny, and heteronormativity that are often part and parcel of slash, particularly Old Skool Slash.

There was also a brief mention of We're Not Gay, and I just want to take a moment to reiterate how much I hate that trope. LOL I know it's an old stand-by for slash, but I just hate it. I think if you experience same-sex attraction and sexual activity then you are at least bisexual and possibly gay. I get that the trope is supposed to make the OTP special--what could be more special than changing one's sexual orientation, right? It's supposed to prove that they are so inevitable and magical that nothing can stand in the way of their epic LOVE, but mostly it seems to me to be a way to get two guys to have sex without acknowledging homosexuality at all. Although I have read it before and enjoyed, that enjoyment is usually despite the WNG trope rather than because of it.

[livejournal.com profile] denny_dc started her portion of the panel with a list of insulting terms, some of which I already knew like using "gay" as a perjorative. I had not realized that dreadlocks actually is a term originally used by colonizers of Caribbean peoples to describe their hair (dreadful locks).

ENOUGH KISSING, GET ON WITH THE MAIMING! GEN-FIC
Moderator: [livejournal.com profile] redeem147
Panelists: Debra Doyle (who I actually think was not there), [livejournal.com profile] general_jinjur, [livejournal.com profile] bastardsnow

This panel really made me want to read House of Leaves as SPN. Like really, really, really, really bad. Really bad.

There was a discussion of bob and gron and porny gen and I brought up queerly_gen on Dreamwidth (which only Jinjur seemed to have heard of) and essentially I thought the entire discussion was hampered by a lack of consensus about what gen really means and what its conventions are.

One of the panelists used the phrase "slash minus one" to describe stories that have slashy elements but seem very light on them or don't include sex and I think Dasha's "Salt of the Earth" was cited as an example. I think this story falls neatly into slash according to my personal definition (full discussion in comments). I also have never heard the phrase "slash minus one" and was tempted to ask during the discussion if anyone would ever use "het minus one" as a descriptor. My feeling is no. I suspect that were a story to contain a Buffy and a Spike who pined for each other and yet never consummated their relationship, that story would be called het.

IF YOU BUILD IT, THEY WILL COME: HOW THE INTERNET BUILDS COMMUNITIES AROUND FANFIC
Moderator: [livejournal.com profile] scarlettgirl
Panelists: Kristina Busse, [livejournal.com profile] shaddyr, [livejournal.com profile] kalichan, and [livejournal.com profile] versaphile

[livejournal.com profile] scarlettgirl was an excellent moderator. I mean, really really good. There was a plan and a structure and I was impressed with the way this panel worked in terms of each panelist's contribution building on the one that came before. [livejournal.com profile] shaddyr started out with an excellent discussion of pre-internet fandom, [livejournal.com profile] versaphile told us all about the vagaries of archiving (and OMG, y'all, the amount of work that goes into making fandom an accessible place for us all is astonishing), [livejournal.com profile] kalichan talked about reccing, the lovely mod discussed newsletters and what goes into maintaining a successful one (again with all the work!), and Nina finished with a discussion of OTW and how it is addressing a lot of the issues brought up in the other panelists' talks.

I've got one more panel to discuss but I think I'm calling it quits for the night. Sister-in-law is here and SHE IS AWESOME! I just introduced her to SPN and I think there's more of that on the plate for tonight. She's being too heavily influenced by Josh's opinion that Sam has cro-magnon forehead. Off to remedy that!
lunabee34: (spn: dean foreground b/w by motionswave)
Remix is live and some shiny individual [livejournal.com profile] amara_m wrote the most amazing Remix of Thanatopsis (SPN; Sam/Dean; Adult). The writing of this story remains the most visceral and emotional writing experience of my life. I was driving from Oxford to Hattiesburg, MS (somewhere between 300-350 miles) with my young child and I just got hit by this idea. Smack in the face, almost as if I could audibly hear words being spoken. "Roadkill" had just aired and I couldn't get that idea out of my mind--the ghost who doesn't know she's a ghost, who's caught in this endless cycle of confusion and misundertanding and longing. I'm driving and I don't want to stop but the words are coming and Emma is sleeping and if I stop she might wake up and I'd really rather drive with her sleeping because I'm alone. There's a pile of napkins in the console (this is what mothers do; we collect napkins) so I start writing on the napkins (WHILE DRIVING! LIKE A DUMBASS!) and then I start crying because I am making myself SO SAD! So that by the time I get to my folks, I have like twenty napkins covered in fic and my face is all puffy. I told them Ira Glass was airing a very emotional story; I'm not sure they bought it. Or that they knew who Ira Glass is, but I digress.

[livejournal.com profile] amara_m has written thanatopsis (The Little Things Remix), and it is glorious. I believe fervently that remix is not for the original author; it is for the remixee to remix as ze will, but that being said, oh is this story for me. I adore this fic and let me tell you why.

When I think of remix, this is exactly the sort of story I picture. )
lunabee34: (spn: pamela by inthe_sunshine)
So, I've been thinking about something lately. It's an amalgamation of reading SPN Big Bang and looking back through the first recs I made in the SPN fandom.

I want to write a season one or two SPN fic. You know what I'm talking about. Something gritty and uncertain, saving people hunting things the family business, two boys in a car, some goddamn hope on the horizon. Something [livejournal.com profile] causeways or [livejournal.com profile] traveller or [livejournal.com profile] mikhale (who else wants it to be Joel? LOL) might have written in the wayback. And I don't think I can do it.

I've been trying to pin down why and I think it's because I know what happens next. That's never been a problem for me before. I had no problem writing Basement Fic in BtVS even though I'd seen the whole series and [livejournal.com profile] ariadne83 and I are rocking Our Own Private Bang even though SG-1 and SGA are both over and there's no surprises left there. But for some reason, I cannot get out of the emotional headspace of season four--or really, to be more accurate, the moment that Dean made the deal with the crossroads demon. That seems the irrevocable moment for me, the invisible line I'm having trouble crossing.

I want to write this thing that is bereft of the apocalypse, where Dean's soul is stuck in his chest safe and sound, and the worst things we've got to worry about are: Where's Dad and what does the YED want? But I feel like I can't shed the unremitting loss and sorrow of the subsequent three seasons, like it's going to bleed over somehow into anything I try to write. Does that make sense? (It's like how I won't get the subtext in a show at all (*cough* McShep *cough*) for three seasons and then suddenly when I do see it, I can't help but see it from episode one on, even if it wasn't there in the least for me on the first go round.)

Does anybody else have this problem? What do you do? How do you fix it? Are there any concrete writing strategies you use?
lunabee34: (yuletide: kitty by chomiji)
I hesitated for the longest time to participate in this ficathon because, frankly, there's a lot of rules. And it's kind of confusing. And the whole BANNED FOR LIFE thing scared me because I mess up coding and uploading all the time. Just ask the folks over at [livejournal.com profile] supernaturalfic. But I have watched you guys have an absolute blast for the past four years and this time I thought I would not miss out on the fun.

I requested three fandoms: Toy Soldiers, Across the Universe, and Frasier.

My Dear Yuletide Author Letter for my Reference )

The story I received was Golden Slumbers/Carry that Weight/The End by Farasha Silversands and I could not have asked for a better Yuletide gift. I briefly recced this piece in a previous post, but let me say in a little more depth why I like this fic. I think it is an absolutely pitch perfect depiction of PTSD and what I imagine it might be like to try to reintegrate into life after such a harrowing experience. And in Max's case, what it might be like to figure out where you belong when everything you left behind has changed in ways that you can't live with. This is a fic about love, pure and simple, and I love that it was written for me.

I offered to write in a few fandoms: Across the Universe, Outlaw Star (I was really hoping to get this one as Josh and I just recently Netflixed and watched the whole of the series), UKLeG Earthsea, Hebrew Bible or Old Testament (Jael, Sisera, Deborah).

These were my recipient's requests:

1. Alan Bennett--The History Boys
2. Across the Universe--Max/Jude; post-movie; what happens when the music stops?
3. Dead Poet's Society--Life in the subjunctive; events that didn't happen, but almost happened, or should have happened.
4. Michael Cunningham--The Hours

One and four were out instantly because I'd never seen or read the source material. I thought long and hard about the second prompt, but ultimately I decided that I wanted to revisit Dead Poet's Society because it had been such a huge part of my youth.

Reactions to Re-watching the Movie )

The next thing I did was check out my recipient's journal to see what s/he's into and whether she'd left a letter for me. I didn't find a Dear Yuletide Author Letter but I did see some SGA slash there so I felt like my recipient would be okay with slash if that's where the muse took me.

S/he pretty much gave me the whole fic wrapped up in a shiny bow anyway with that kickass prompt. There was my title. LOL And y'all know how much I love both drabbles and the five things meme. This prompt seemed pretty much tailor made for both.

What I was trying to do in each vignette )

I had the best beta in the whole world--[livejournal.com profile] ariadne83. (I'm sure you guys are all, "Why is she going into this much detail? The navel has been gazed enough." But I can't help it)

Our Email Exchange )

Finally, the reception. The ficathon is full of warnings that this is often a low feedback fest, that often only the recipient responds, and I was prepared to be totally okay with that. For reals. But then, I got all these comments. *squeeeeeeeeeeeee* And ALL THESE LORRAINE RECS (including this one from my inveterate cheerleader). I got a Gold Star for being an early poster. I navigated the rules and the crazy posting interface (with the help of you guys) and I got a seriously kick ass fic of my own. (Also, go to my userpics and check out all the cool Yuletide icons.)

Yuletide rocks! Is it December again yet? :)

ETA: I forgot the part where I watched this fanvid by stephantom over and over again for inspiration, and strangely found it way more compelling than the source material itself.
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This fic started out with this line of dialogue I wrote mainly to be silly: "I've always loved this particular Wagner piece," Caldwell says and leans out over the balcony, light from the east Pier reflecting majestically off his bald pate. (Source) [livejournal.com profile] ariadne83 and I started comment tagging, and very quickly, the fic stopped being something we were writing for laughs and morphed into what I think is more of a character study of both men than anything else. Thus the good ship Woolwell began its maiden voyage.

I have no idea if any of you guys are interested in this or not, but I'd like to preserve for myself some of the meta thinking we did when pairing these two.

Woolsey meta )

[livejournal.com profile] ariadne83, let me know if there's anything you'd like to add to this post. :)
lunabee34: (meta foucault by jjjean65)
I have a question.

A few days ago, I read the delightfully funny The Awful Truth by [livejournal.com profile] blade_girl. The rec in which I found the story states: I rec this one with a caveat to slash fans - as a fan of both slash and gen, I must tell you this story contains apparently slashy elements, but is ultimately gen (regardless of the author's notes); and may prove unsatisfying to a slasher. That being said, I find it a plausible, positive, and touching take on the characters and their friendship.) I found this description intriguing and it was pretty much the impetus for me reading the story. The notes for the story itself state: A slash story AND a gen story at the same time. I can’t explain that without giving away the ending, so I ask you to read regardless of your preference. Both the writer of this story and at least one reader of the story (and I assume probably more) seem to think that labeling this fic as slash is problematic.

So my question is the following: what makes a slash fic?

SPOILERS for The Awful Truth )

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