Bleck

My hubby Josh's grandmother died two days ago. She was his only living grandparent. Josh is understandably upset. I am...... ambivalent. Great (for great grandma) was not always the nicest person. She loved her family, but not so much the women they married. She loved her boys, but not so much the girl members of the family. The last handful of times Josh went to visit her, I didn't go, and now I feel guilty about that.

My daughter Emma is three. Josh and I thought that we should try to explain somehow to her that Great was gone and why everyone would be sad. After my speech of "Great was really sick, but now she's in heaven. Gran and Papa and Sassy are very sad, so you might see them cry. But don't worry, cause everybody is okay. They just miss Great," Josh turns to me and announces that he thinks I should have my teeth whitened. My husband deals with grief in teh most maddening way. ARGHHHHHHH!

Not to mention that one of Great's sons, my father-in-law's brother, has only been home to see his family once in the seven years since Josh and I got together. So there's all this tension surrounding him, at least in my imagination.

I'm also terrified that Emma will do or say something inappropriate surrounding the solemnities. Today, everybody was in surprisingly good spirits and she brought smiles to everyone's faces. But I flinched when she started shouting that we were having a birthday party (We were at Great's house with lots of food and people were playing with her and giving her candy in her defense) for fear that someone would get offended. No one did, thankfully.

Firefly fic: Five Things that Never Happened to Simon Tam

And here we have my version of the Five Things Meme.

Rated R for character death and other violence; I'm utterly aware that #4 is completely gratuitous, but the meme's for FIVE things.......

Slight BDM spoilers, but only for the information that the BDM reveals that takes place before the start of the series. All vignettes take place during Firefly the series.

Thanks to kitty_poker1 for stepping outside her fandom to do an absolutely fabulous beta!

( Five Rather Nasty and Sadistic Things that Never Happened to Simon Tam )

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