This is driving me crazy OMG

I just recently read a sci-fi book and now I can't remember the title or the author. Please, dear Internets, HELP!

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PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME YOU KNOW THIS BOOK!! *tears out hair*

Remix: Trek Recs

Never Put My Hope (the Second Generation Masters of Our Destiny remix)
TOS; Pike/Number One
You should read bosette's original fic, Bring the Mountain To first. This fic is gorgeous, striking, the best kind of world building and mythos-making. In this fic, the crew of the Enterprise is stuck on Talos, animals in the zoo of a far more advanced race. And drawing liberally from Judeo-Christian (but mostly Hebrew) sources, Number One kicks ass and takes names. This is a story about rebuilding a society from the ground up, about making new rules and negotiating new truths, about the death of Gods. Anon Remixer's fic is about the fallout, and it is freaking awesome.

The Moment of Our Greatness Flickers (The Love Is A Losing Hand Remix)
TOS or nu!Trek
This is the story of the end of McCoy's marriage.

There is Joy in Repetition (But Sometimes You Have to Break Routine Extended Remix)
nu!Trek
Christine Chapel is a FRELLING BADASS, and I love it love it love it love it. Really nice character insights and commentary on heroism and command.

Pipe Dreams (The Marzipan in Your Pie Plate Megamix)
nu!Trek
This is so disturbing and dark and creepy, all while being more than a little funny. What lengths do you go to to keep the people you love and what does it say about you that you can't let go?