what even is this journal anymore? OMG

My lab results from the endo came in; thyroid is finally fucked enough to start taking a low dose of Synthroid. I guess that's why I've been taking two and three naps a day for the last week (which if you know me, you know that I only nap under extreme duress) and hurting more and more. Pharmacy didn't have the low dose on hand; will get it in today, so I can start taking it tomorrow (must be taken first thing in the morning).

But the real joy is that over the weekend, one of my supra clavicular lymph nodes started swelling. I think. Maybe it's a knot. I certainly hope so because it's on the left side. Don't google it. I'm leaving in just a few minutes to get an ultrasound of the area. Prayers, well wishes, and all exhortations of the universe appreciated. I do not have time for this. I am writing a class that goes live on Monday, the conference I run happens on Thursday, and I am not interested in dealing with whatever the fuck this is.

Love y'all. Thank you in advance. Will update on my return.

Update

So, apparently I have a bunch of lymph nodes that are enlarged in addition to the one I'm worried about. This is apparently typical for Hashimoto's patients who often have enlarged lymph nodes clustered around their thyroid area. Apparently last semester when I had the very swollen and painful lymph node, a bunch of my other lymph nodes were also enlarged at that time, too, and the endo did not find any of that concerning.

The radiologist is likely going to just sign off on this ultrasound as fine as none of my lymph nodes appear abnormal (despite being enlarged). Apparently they only worry when the lymph node appears malformed.

But I'm not satisifed with that because this particular lymph node (and it is a lymph node that is measuring 7 mm) is outside the range of the lymph nodes that they typically see enlarged with Hashimoto's and it is also potentially indicating something more serious (what I didn't say before is that I'm worried about lymphoma and ovarian cancer). I didn't think of it until after I left, but I called them when I got home and asked them if they'll biopsy it. They do that in-house. It's possible the radiologist will recommend biopsying it anyway. I also called my obgyn and told the nurse all about it (and he's going to wait and review the radiology report), and if I need to, I'll go to my gp. But one way or the other I want to get this lymph node biopsied, and if all is well, then I will put this to rest and just know that my lymph nodes do this and I don't need need to freak out about it.

In other news, I've got Synthroid in hand and will take my first dose in the morning. I have high hopes for feeling better in a few weeks!

Thank you all for your well wishes. It was very cheering to read them throughout the day.