lunabee34

I'm so glad you had those wonderful and inclusive experiences with religion and family. That's worth so much. I feel so tainted by my experiences growing up that I feel spiritually bereft; I would like spiritual beliefs and practices, but I am kneejerk afraid of/against all of them. It's a trauma response.

I just don't know what to do about my parents. I want to have nothing to do with them anymore, but I also feel guilty and sad for hurting their feelings. It's also twisted up with every kind thing they've done for us, like I can put all the ways they've hurt me in one bowl of the scales and all the ways they've been good in the other--but I can't figure out which is heavier. It's been eating me up.