OMG, y'all, WTF?

ETA: See my next post for an update.

So I called the MRI place because when they scheduled the appointment at the beginning of the week, they said they'd call me back with what I was going to owe. They didn't, so I called them this morning. My insurance hasn't approved it yet, and while the nurse doesn't seem to think that's unusual or cause for worry (she said they mostly approve the day before), if they don't approve it, I can't get the test. WTF? Even if I pay for it all out of my pocket (which I will be doing anyway; I haven't met my deductible, so I'm paying for it all out of pocket), I have to have insurance approval to have the tests done at all. This is utterly insane to me. So now I'm really worried that I won't be able to get the MRIs tomorrow. I'm trying to chill and relax, but I cannot stand how utterly stressful and bizarre our medical system is.

*deep breaths*

Annoyed but calmer

1. So the MRIs are not happening tomorrow. The authorization is still pending and is slated to be closed next Wednesday. However, the person I spoke to earlier was wrong; if the insurance denies it, I can still get the scans and pay for them myself. And the imaging center thinks it will be no problem to get me in quickly after the decision is made on Wed. So one way or another, I will soon be getting the MRIs. This is just a delay.

2. Some good things: Emma has an appointment to get a vaccine tomorrow! I got Margaret Atwood's latest book of poems in the mail from misbegotten today! Fiona and I played outside for an hour and a half (she had a half day today) and saw tiny bugs and crawfish and flowers and a wee, wee feather stuck on a blade of grass.

3. It's all going to be okay. It really is. I am going to breathe, and it's going to be okay. I cannot live at a fever pitch of anxiety. *hugs you all*