OMG,y'all, I feel like I'm losing my mind

[lunabee34]

I'm sorry if I've been curt with anyone lately. I just am kind spiralling out of control, I think.

My dad's close friend died yesterday; in addition to making him sad, I think it's also hammering home his own mortality especially since getting over this mycoplasm infection thing is already at the four month mark for him and still isn't healed yet. And he's going to have chemo next week which is going to kick his ass.

When we went to physical therapy this week, Emma had the epiphany that the likelihood she's not going to be able to run on the cross country team is pretty high, and she is really devastated. I had to do the responsible, calm, stoic helpful mom thing and tell her about my struggles and my broken body and how people with physical limitations have to learn to adapt and do things different ways and replace some activities with others while I was having a hysterical meltdown on the inside because I know how important running is to her.

There was a school shooting threat at a nearby school; some of Emma's friends have friends who go to that school and posted about it on social media, so Emma got really jumpy, and then they had an unplanned fire drill that really freaked her out. Then a boy in her class pushed his girlfriend down at school and broke her finger and her wrist, and Emma feels really uncomfortable being around this kid now, which I fucking understand.

The oven that we ordered weeks ago came in at the beginning of this week. When are they going to install it? On the 22nd during an event that's been planned for more than a year (fortunately, I can spare Josh). I've already been without an oven for weeks now; that'll put it at over a month. I'm just incandescent with rage.

But I got an article I've been revising for publication turned in before deadline, and I had lunch with my husband today which is a rare treat, and I'm going to have all next week of spring break to watch Guardian and really feverishly work and read and write so that I can have some breathing room when school starts back up.

I just am losing my cope here. *sigh*

I need to come up with a shitpollst to take my mind off things. Any ideas?

Comments

[executrix]

I am so, so sorry about Emma being on the DL because running is really important to her. I know she's also having issues with her arm, but...could she swim? A lot of people have had to change sports because of physical issues, but they can still enjoy athletics.

I bet you can still get countertop convection ovens for under $100. And of course "hey, let's find ways to SPEND MORE MONEY BECAUSE WE'RE SO RICH!" isn't the situation BUT the countertop will come in handy for stuff like dinner parties and Thanksgiving when there's no room in the regular oven once you have one.

Shitpollst suggestion: sexiest sci fi TV hero. I mean, OBVIOUSLY the answer is Avon, although "hero" is pushing it.

[havocthecat]

As long as "hero" involves more than just dudes, I'm up for that shitpollsting.

[lunabee34]

Hearing you loud and clear!

[havocthecat]

So many possibilities!

[slightweasel]

That all sounds SO stressful. I hope you get a break soon. ❤️

ETA: clicked the wrong reply link somewhere, sorry! Obviously this was meant for lunabee.

[lunabee34]

Thank you.

*hugs*

[lunabee34]

Your suggestion has won the day! And the hearts and the minds of the people. Although it occurred to me the instant I posted it that I left Servalan off the list. *headdesk*

She can definitely swim! In fact, I am really looking forward to that. Unfortunately, we have to wait until the outdoor pool at the school opens; it's just too hard to drive an hour one way after school to go swimming. But the summer will be much easier for that. The pool should open at some point in April.

You, we have one of those! I just think of it as the thing we roast the turkey in on Thanksgiving, but I could totally use it for other stuff. *headdesk* Oblivious much, me?

[executrix]

It's not you, specifically: a lot of business consulting consists of shifting the conversation from "Widget that does X is broken! How do we get it fixed?" to "How do we do X with or without the Widget?"

[lunabee34]

OMG, you are so right (you know, as usual). LOL

[executrix]

My favorite is the suggestion that buggy whip manufacturers could have survived if they identified their niche as "flagellation" rather than "transportation accessories."

[lunabee34]

It's all about the marketing.

[misbegotten]

You are the bestest mom and daughter.

[lunabee34]

I do not at all feel that way, but I do try my best. *hugs* thank you.

[havocthecat]

Oh, hon. I can't even comment much about your dad, just give you a whole bunch of sympathy, because of my own dad issues, but I'm so sorry. Your poor dad.

Poor Emma. Look, I feel for her. SO MUCH. But she's young. She will adapt. She's strong, and she has a great pair of supportive parents who will help her learn to adapt and who are helping to let her grow and learn and develop now instead of ignoring her and making her get worse. I know it's hard, but she will be fine because you and your husband are amazing parents.

Though the boy in her class is an utter creep and I have no idea what you're going to do about that, yeesh, good luck.

I'm sorry about the oven problems. With all your other issues, how the heck have you been coping?

But I"m glad you have some good things going on.

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

I know she will, too. She's gonna figure it out, and eventually it will all be fine, but it's so hard to watch her be upset.

I don't feel like an amazing parent; I feel like I'm flailing around in the dark. But I am trying really hard, and your support keeps me going.

[havocthecat]

It is! It's the worst! None of us ever feel like we know what we're doing and it's so hard in the moment - or if we try to lean on the general internet for advice, then you get told you're a terrible parent. Thank fuck for our friends on the internet instead, because then we're at least feeling like we're flailing in the dark together.

But you're not flailing in the dark. You're a great mom.

[lunabee34]

OMG, thank you so much. I appreciate you saying that so hard.

*hugs hugs*

And you know I think the same of you, right? You're a good mom to a good kiddo.

[author_by_night]

*Hugs* I'm sorry, hon. Those things are rough. I'm sorry for your dad, and for Emma.



I need to come up with a shitpollst to take my mind off things. Any ideas?

Hm. Movies or books that could be seen as Jane Austen remakes, even if they weren't necessarily meant to be? (I may not be understanding what you mean by "shitpost", though.)

[lunabee34]

Thank you so much, sweetie. *hugs*

My shitpollsts are just stupid polls about fandom stuff (although they don't have to be). I could totally do a Jane Austen one; that would be fun.

[notasupervillain]

Hugs. That was a quality shitpost, at least. But for the rest of it, hugs.

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

Thank you.

[lyr]

*hugs* That's really all I've got. I'm sorry you're carrying so much right now, hon. I hope things get better and your cope has time to recover.

[lunabee34]

Thank you, sweetie.

*clings*

[sholio]

*hugs*

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

Thank you.

[torachan]

Wow, that's a lot of stress! Hope things calm down soon.

[lunabee34]

Thank you.

*hugs*

[umadoshi]

Yikes. *groggy but very sympathetic hugs*

[lunabee34]

*gentle hugs*

Thank you.

[independence1776]

*hugs*

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

(I love that icon; makes me smile)

[the_rck]

::hugs::

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

Thank you.

[china_shop]

*so much hugs*

[lunabee34]

Thank you.

*hugs*

[timespirt]

"HUGS" "HUGS" "HUGS" 3 just because...

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

Thank you, sweetie.

[ariadne83]

Wow, that is SO much to deal with all at once! I'm sorry I haven't been around much; hyperemesis was kicking my ass until I got new meds on Friday

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

Fortunately at least some of that stuff has resolved since I posted it. Right now this vitamin D deficiency is kicking my ass. It takes so long to start feeling better.

How are your new meds working out? Can you tell any difference yet, or will it take longer?

Have you heard of Guardian? I think you would dig it hard if you're interested in picking up a new fandom.

[ariadne83]

The new meds are magical! I can actually do stuff besides lie in bed and sleep.

I've heard of Guardian but I'm not really up to subtitles at the moment. Baby girl doesn't like it when I use screens for too long

[lunabee34]

I am so glad you are feeling better!

Subtitles are not my favorite either. LOL

I am blanking; which baby girl are you talking about?

[ariadne83]

I get pregnancy migraines :-(

[lunabee34]

OMG, I didn't know you're pregnant! Congratulations!!! That's wonderful. When are you due?

[ariadne83]

July 17! So she's going to be a winter baby.

[lunabee34]

That's so exciting! Yay! I'm really happy for you.