Yep. It's Tuesday.

[lunabee34]

1. I met with my chair today for evaluations, and it was a really gratifying conversation. She encouraged me to apply for promotion to full professor next year and told me that my vita is very, very strong in all areas except scholarship; if I can get an article published this year, she thinks that section of my vita will be in line with expectations. I have worked my ass off in these last ten years, and it is so gratifying to hear my boss say that my teaching and service and community outreach are exemplary. I have an article under review at a peer reviewed journal right now; I suspect it's going to be rejected (I already got a revise and resubmit, and they're taking way longer to get back to me on the revisions than they projected, so that seems a bad sign to me), but I've made my peace with that. I'm going to submit the article I'm in the process of writing about the camp I created for the local high school students, and I'm going to submit a chapter of my dissertation somewhere this summer and cross my fingers. And I might try sending the article that's out now somewhere else if it gets rejected; IDK. In any event, feeling really good about my work right now.

2. Which is good because physically I feel like shit. I assumed when I started taking the vitamin D that it wouldn't take me long to start feeling better. And in that first week, I did start feeling better. I see now that it was entirely due to placebo effect. I feel so tired and worn down and like I could just pass out all the time. I have no energy, and exercising is such a struggle. The only noticeable effect I have from taking the D is that when I take it each week, within a few hours and lasting for about a day, my eyes are much less dry and vision much clearer. And then it tapers off and they get dry and blurry again. Even though taking it doesn't make me feel better or more energized, by the of the week when I've got a day or so left before I can take it again, I start feeling I've been beat up. This just sucks so hard. Everything I'm seeing on the internet says it takes a really long time to get over a D deficiency (and I think it had been building for about a year before it was detected), but I'm so tired of feeling so tired. It seems like a whiny complaint to have. I'm ambulatory; I can work; I'm not in pain. But my mouth and eyes are so dry, and I'm so bone tired, and I have brain fog, and I'm depressed and sad. Woe is me. :(

3. We finally watched another episode of Jessica Jones.

I like the nods to the larger MCU universe like the mentions of the Raft where they kept Team Cap prisoner.

At first I was really glad that Trish and Jess cleared the air. No more secrets. Trish admits to sleeping with Malcolm and to being an addict. Everybody knows the murderer is Jess's mom.

But then it's clear that Trish is still a trainwreck, and no matter how off-putting Jess's mom may be, she's got Trish pegged. I mean, what she's doing is tied up in her addiction issues and everything else, but she is jealous of Jess and she feels inferior and she can't let this go. I mean, one of the shots in this episode or one prior is of her watching her former boyfriend do some important journalism work. She wants so badly to do something meaningful and important, but she is fucking up her friendship with Jess and with Malcolm. This season has made Trish really deeply unlikable for me and I hate that because her friendship with Jess is like the best thing in the whole show. :(

Jeri breaks my heart. I was so shocked for it all to be a scam. Wow. Carrie Ann Moss totally nails that scene when she comes home to a burgled apartment.

I don't know how Jess is going to get around killing the guard. I mean, he's clearly a serial killer and it was accidental, but it's murder.

Comments

[sholio]

Awww man, that sucks about the vitamin D. :( I have further comments about it if health advice is wanted; let me know.

Season 2 of JJ is SO GODDAMN DEPRESSING. I really hope S3 is more upbeat; I really want the series to end on an "up" note, like DD does.

[zulu]

Ugh, that exhaustion sounds...well, exhausting. I really sympathize. It's so tough when you have to drag yourself through the day.

But it sounds like you're really well-positioned to get that publication you need! Three things out the door at once has got to have some good odds of success. Congratulations!

[china_shop]

Your work stuff all sounds so shiny! *admires*

I'm so sorry the health stuff sucks. *much hugs* (And it's not whiny! If you can't complain here, where can you?)

[chelseagirl]

I found it so interesting in JJ2, because in JJ1 and The Defenders, Trish was so the responsible one, even though we had hints that she was in recovery, etc. But what Sholio said above, JJ2's a downer, but hopefully they'll follow the same trajectory they did in Daredevil. I think/hope they knew it was their last -- I actually wonder about that with DD, too, as season 3 was very satisfying in its conclusion.

Also, prospective congrats! It sounds like you've got a fair bit out there. I'm applying for Senior University Lecturer next fall, which is our only non-TT promotion. It's supposed to be based on teaching only, but I'm going to submit my scholarship and service, and most importantly, my writing center annual reports as well. Since I teach a half-load, I have fewer bites at the apple for course evals -- not that they're bad so far, but there's always the fear when things depend so much on that.

[amejisuto]

~HUGS~ I'm so sorry you're feeling sick and tired. Ar least work seems to be going well for you. Still, brain fog is a bitch to work through. Here's to hoping your vitamins help.

[kore]

if I can get an article published this year, she thinks that section of my vita will be in line with expectations

That's fucking awesome! Yay for winning at academia, which is fucking hard!

....man, supplements, IDEFK. I got wary of them and never take any, altho I have a bunch of B and D deficiencies myself, whoops.

I loved S2 of JJ, but a lot of people found it too dark and gritty. It was absolutely just what I needed though. I also loved that all the major characters were women and they were all outstanding.

[spikedluv]

Congrats on a great evaluation and being poised for a promotion!

I'm sorry that it's taking so long for you to start feeling better. But I can't lie, I chuckled at this: taking the D o_O *g*

[nyctanthes]

Yay for work, boo for health, and fingers crossed for a good final season of JJ. I rather like the tension between Trish and Jess. While I'm not sure how Jess is going to forgive Trish after her massive fuck up, I'm interested to see how the showrunner(s) will do it (because I'm pretty sure that's the intent.)

And of course, Jeri and Malcom. I'd like to see Malcom own his shit. And maybe not go back to the good guys? Hmm....

[notasupervillain]

Yay for promotion! Very Yay for hard work being recognized. Hugs!

Boo for illness. And there's no "just" about illness - anything could always be worse but that's just a statement about the depths of tragedy. It sounds pretty terrible. Hugs.

So. Many hugs for you.