I'm so glad I didn't stay up last night to watch the results come in. I know I wouldn't have been able to go to sleep after. I'm glad I at least got what passes as a good night's sleep for me before having to face this new reality.spikedluv
linked to an article that sums up what I'm feeling right now: Throughout this election cycle I was confident of a Hillary Clinton victory because she is eminently qualified for the presidency and she ran a strong campaign. As I watch the election results come in, I am stunned. I was confident, not only because of who Mrs. Clinton is. I was confident because I thought there were more Americans who believe in progress and equality than there were Americans who were racist, xenophobic, misogynistic and homophobic.
I agree with what Bill Maher said last week about this election finally exposing (most undeniably, most unequivocally, out there in the open for all to see) the hypocrisy of white, evangelical Christianity. At the best times, I find most of the Republican Party platform antithetical to Christianity, but the words that have come out of Trump's mouth and the things he has done over his lifetime are mutually exclusive with Christianity. I would have so much more respect for conservative Christians if they would just drop the Christian part and be honest about their motives: we love money, we hate gay people, we hate brown people, we don't exactly hate women but we want to keep them subservient and subordinate, and we want to bow out of our part of the social contract (agreeing to give up part of our liberty) but we want the government to keep its end of the bargain (insuring our security, etc.) without having to pay for it. The suggestion that Jesus wants us to earn as much money as possible by any means possible or that he wants us to have guns and shoot people with them or that he doesn't want us to take care of the poor, the disabled, the vulnerable or that he wants us to merrily burn this world he made to cinder--this is like the opposite of everything Jesus ever says and does in the Bible. I long ago lost my patience with people whose every word is about Jesus and their faith and who talk about how Christianity informs their every decision from where to buy their toilet paper (definitely not Target, amirite?) to the makeup they use (my mom trufax stopped using Clarins, a French makeup brand, and called fries freedom fries after 9-11), but now my rage at them is incandescent.
There's a reason the KKK never supports a Democratic candidate. When white supremacists and hate groups are drawn to a party, that says more about the party than it does the hate group. The KKK never goes, "Oooooooh, equal access to health care and paid maternity leave and more protections for vulnerable groups? Sign me up!"
It's very difficult to wish the Trump voters would reap the foolishness of this election because that would just hurt me, too. I've already been thinking about how I might not be able to leave this job if I wanted because I have two pre-existing medical conditions, and I don't know if I could get insurance somewhere else or be able to afford the premiums if they deign to insure me after Obamacare is dismantled.
I'm mostly just shocked and dismayed and sad. I woke up to Emma crying. I hope she has managed the day alright. I told her to keep her head down and not to engage; if she hears someone gloating or knocking Hillary just walk away because she's outnumbered and it's a fight she can't win. I hope she didn't get too hassled.