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FANFIC MASTERLIST: These are listed in order of their post dates within each fandom. All fic has also been posted to AO3.

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1. Downton Abbey watch continues. SPOILERS )

2. I have been enjoying The Walking Dead so much more now that we've gotten past the "must establish Rick's manpain" portion of the season. SPOILERS )

3. NCIS just did an episode where someone has cancer, and it pissed me off. Everyone keeps telling the patient to keep fighting and not to give up, and I don't think that's always good advice. A person has the right to decide she doesn't want to do X horrible thing that may not work. Also, they dangled an experimental drug trial in front of her like a miracle cure, and that is just not the way it works. First off, you might not qualify for the trial, you might end up in the placebo group, and the drug might not even work or it might have terrible side effects (give you a different kind of cancer or make your kidneys explode, who knows?). Bah.

4. Emma and I finished season 1 of Dollhouse and loved it. SPOILERS )
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The Library at Mount CharThe Library at Mount Char by Scott Hawkins

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I really liked this book. The author drops you right into the middle of the action, and half the pleasure of reading this book is trying to figure out exactly what's going on and who's on whose side. I hesitate to say too much about this one; I think it's better reading it entirely unspoiled. The language is beautiful, the plot is incredibly novel and interesting, the narrative unfolds in unexpected ways, and the characters are richly drawn. By the end, I'd cried multiple times. Highly recommend this one.

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1. So, I have some pics of my new haircut. I feel like they don't truly capture the awesomeness of it; it looks so much better in motion than it does in a static picture. I am very pleased with it, though.

pictures of my hair )

2. I've been playing around with my new Leuchturrm.

January and February Memories )

3. Almost done with season 1 of Dollhouse. OMG, we are loving it! Review soon. Probably finish season 1 tomorrow. Thank you so much for loaning it to us, [personal profile] executrix.
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Kitchen Confidential: Adventures in the Culinary UnderbellyKitchen Confidential: Adventures in the Culinary Underbelly by Anthony Bourdain

I loved No Reservations and watched its entire run avidly. Anthony Bourdain is extremely charismatic, interesting, attractive, funny, and witty on that show. I also appreciated that the show took such a political turn in the last season or so. Given my love for his TV persona, I expected to really like this book, but it didn't grab me.

Kitchen Confidential is a good look at what being a chef at the end of the twentieth century was like. It's got fascinating insider info and really gets across what a grueling life the food service industry is.

However, I kinda bounced off the persona Bourdain creates for this book. He, and pretty much everyone else around him, are so off-puttingly drunk and high and worthless for so much of the book that I got pretty bored with the degeneracy fairly early on. I also bounced off the casual sexism and homophobia that permeates the kitchens of the restaurants Bourdain writes about. I believe him 100% that this is an accurate depiction; I also believe him when he says he's not sexist or homophobic. But his attitude of "it is how it is with the sexism and homophobia" rubs me the wrong way. I also got my hackles up at (I must admit the relatively few; it's either just one or two) small comments he makes about people with dietary restrictions. Yes, Anthony Bourdain, I have celiac because it's inconvenient for YOU! *sigh* I realize this was written quite some time ago, but knowing that chefs at restaurants are full of contempt for those of us who would like to eat at restaurants sometimes (and sometimes even NEED to) but who have allergies or other dietary restrictions is so maddening. I believe a lot of this has changed; the book now includes an afterword where Bourdain talks about women getting into the boy's club, and I think attitudes toward gluten free menu items has definitely changed because so many places are offering gluten free now.

Tl;dr: Interesting book in which I did not care for the protagonist much.

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1. I got my hair cut and I really like it. I have zero desire to wear anything but pjs or to put on makeup this weekend, so I'll take a fancy picture on Monday. I didn't take one on Friday because I also got my eyebrows done, and I always look like I have face herpes after a waxing. LOL She didn't have enough time to really change the color since I sprung the whole I want a drastically different cut and color on her at the last second, but she went a shade lighter and did a few highlights. Next haircut I'm going red with a variety of red highlights.

2. Our wedding anniversary was Friday. 16 years. Feels both like five minutes and my entire life. So glad I found someone like Josh to share my life with.

3. Also late Thursday night, early Friday morning, someone stole my debit card number (probably on Thursday when I was driving back from MS; I got gas at some podunk gas station at the pump outside, and I bet that's when it got stolen). They managed to get $600 before they got cut off, so it could have been much worse. I did all the stuff with the bank, so I expect to get reimbursed soon.

4. Mom and I went shopping. I got five pairs of pj pants which may not sound exciting, but I've been wearing pj pants that are 3 sizes too big for me, and it feels glorious to wear pjs that fit properly. I also got two dresses and two cardigans, one of them short sleeved. It was an excellent haul.

5. I also had an epiphany about my relationship with my parents that I'm not ready to post about yet. I'm either super relieved or super pissed off (maybe it's just gotta be both?), and I can't decide what I want to be yet. LOL

6. I hit 153! I am now officially not overweight according to the BMI chart. It's an arbitrary milestone, but it amuses me.
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When I was asking about pixie cuts, [personal profile] monanotlisa mentioned that a current picture might help with the decision. So here's a couple pictures of me on the back porch wearing that red shirt that [personal profile] executrix sent me.

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I am contemplating getting a pixie cut. I am paranoid that Elmiron is making my hair thin more than just the usual hair loss associated with my thyroid condition. I'm also really feeling how easy a pixie cut is. I'd have back the handful of minutes it takes to dry my hair in the morning. I'm also considering changing the hair color, and with a pixie you get it cut every three weeks, so I think it would be like three hair cuts max before all the current dye is completely gone. I'm also thinking forward to the summer. I want to swim most days, so dying my hair is almost pointless if I'm just going to chlorine the hell out of it every day. I could get it cut into a pixie, quit dying it, and start again in August for school to start.

I've had my hair super short multiple times, and while I think the cuts with longer bangs are probably the most flattering onme, I just cannot do bangs. They do not work on me. My hair is thin and fine and so they get scraggledy and separate really easily. I cannot stand anything even partially in my eyes. My hair always wants to part in this one place, and that looks stupid with bangs.

So if I do this, I'll be asking for the version with super short bangs.

My only real hesitation is two-fold: whenever I have my hair super short, I always really like it in the moment, but when I look back at myself in pictures, I don't think it's very flattering. I also think that thinner people pull off really short hair more successfully, and I worry that going that short will make my face look rounder and plumper. IDK

I'm also thinking about either going red again or maybe staying dark brown (it really is the most flattering on me of all the colors I've tried if I'm completely honest LOL) and adding some red highlights.

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1. Josh had his endoscopy/colonoscopy yesterday. Everything went fine, and the doctor saw nothing immediately apparently wrong. Now we have to wait on the biopsies. On the one hand, I am thrilled that nothing is immediately apparently wrong. On the other, I am envisioning a drawn out process in which we may not even be able to figure out what the problem is. *sigh* I want a tricorder, dammit, and I want it now.

2. I have been reading like my old self again! It's wonderful! I read all of The Girl with All the Gifts yesterday, just devoured it in one go like Lorraine of Yore. And then I read some random poetry (oh, Anne Sexton, Transformations is such a glorious, glorious work; thank you for it). Feels nice.

3. I cleared a bunch of work stuff off my plate this past week, and I intend to get everything caught up and squared away over this upcoming week which is spring break. I wrote the forward to the next edition of the peer-reviewed journal attached to the academic org I'm president of this year; that was fun. I also went through and changed the pagination on almost all of my notes for 1102 as the text I'm teaching from went to a new edition; that was much less fun.

4. I've been writing on my autoimmune disorder memoir! I actually have an idea for the shape of the thing, and I've been putting down words. I still can't seem to get the hang of writing on it every day, but I am writing on it.

5. My Leuchtturm1917 arrived! It is beautiful, and it smells delicious just like [personal profile] elfin said it would. I did the title page with mandala corners and a quote from Margaret Atwood's "Spelling."

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I really liked this book. Highly recommended. Reminded me a bit of The Southern Reach Trilogy.


I hear they are making this into a movie which I don't think I could ever watch because of the subject matter, but the book was fantastic.
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1. Downton Abbey watch continues. I'm put out with the latest plot development. spoilers )

2. Weight loss seems to have slowed down. cut for talk of weight loss )

3. IC stuff is going well. I'm not really having any side effects from the Elmiron. I'm not having any flare ups. I feel pretty good. *crossing fingers*

4. Josh's colonoscopy/endoscopy is on Friday. I hope we find out what's wrong and don't need any more tests.
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The Dead SecretThe Dead Secret by Wilkie Collins

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I absolutely loved this book. Many of Collins's novels are predicated on a secret, and this is clearly no exception. What I really liked about this book (in comparison to, say, Man and Wife where the audience is in on the secret the whole time) is that the secret is kept from the audience until almost the very end. For a good half of the book, I had no clue what the secret might be, and then I started to suspect what the secret was but not the why of it. The mystery aspect of the novel is really well done. Collins misdirects multiple times, leaving little clues that end up going nowhere or suggesting something about someone's personality that ends up not playing out the way the reader might think.

The characters are very well drawn and interesting. One of the main characters is blind, and his wife serves as his eyes, giving Collins ample opportunity for beautiful prose and sparkling dialogue.

I don't want to spoil what the secret is, but I will say that it's heartbreaking, and I found myself moved to tears by the novel's end.

So, if you like a good mystery, a heaping helping of gothic trappings, irascible old misanthropes, and beautiful young women who can describe the contents of a room as if they're reciting poetry, this is the novel for you!

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The AwakeningThe Awakening by Kate Chopin

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I'd only read this book once a very long time ago as an undergraduate, and my memories of it were hazy before this reread. I hadn't remembered how candidly it treats Edna's infidelity, and I thought it had been written much later than the turn of the century.

I also didn't know anything about Kate Chopin until this reread. Apparently, publishing The Awakening ruined her career; the book was roundly condemned, and she lost her reputation and many friends as a result. She only lived four years after its publication, dying of a stroke or aneurysm. I think a lot about women writers who weren't appreciated in their time and what they would think of their place in the literary canon carved out by second wave feminists in the 60s and 70s. I hope Chopin would feel vindicated that classrooms of college students read her novel each semester and discuss Edna Pontellier's stifling marriage and the limited choices available to her.

I was especially struck on this read by her feelings for her children, how she loves them but doesn't want to be consumed by them, how she wants to follow her own desires but doesn't want her children to be hurt in the fall-out. I am so glad that I live in the 21st century in which I can find plenty of examples of women who have careers and families, who follow their own hearts and are good mothers, who pursue their ambitions and hold down the fort at home at the same time. I'm so glad we live in a time where people can be more open about how maddening motherhood is, how nobody enjoys parental sacrifices, and how being angry or depressed or frustrated is a natural part of being a parent. If I had to live surrounded by the "mother-women" Chopin describes, those women who are constantly sewing baby clothes and who cannot leave their husbands alone because the husbands need them, and who are defined solely by those relationships, I'd probably find myself in crisis, too.

This book is very sad but very beautifully written. Highly recommended.

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1. [personal profile] havocthecat told me how she makes ginger tea, so today I bought a knob of fresh ginger, chopped it up, and steeped it in hot water. Delicious tea!

2. The Great Towel Search of 2017 concluded with the purchase of Fieldcrest towels from Target. I bought half of the towels in a dark gray and the other half in a lighter gray. I washed and dried them before use; they haven't shed any fibers at all. They are super soft, and the color is very rich. They are not quite as absorbent as my 20 year old towels, but how could they be? I think once we've washed and dried them a dozen times, they'll be just about perfect, and they're just fine now.

3. Downton Abbey watch is plugging along. SPOILERS )

4. I'm about a third of the way through Wilkie Collins's The Dead Secret and loving it. He's such a good writer. Also started Kate Chopin's The Awakening which I've only read once and long ago.

5. Josh saw the gastroenterologist today. He's scheduled for an endoscopy in two weeks. He also saw an allergist who tested him for all the allergies. No food allergies (and she said what's going on with him doesn't sound like a food allergy anyway because those almost invariably present with hives and swelling and redness and trouble breathing, etc, and he's had zero of those symptoms), but he does have a pretty severe dust mite allergy. So he'll start getting allergy shots to take care of that in a couple weeks; doc says this should help his general health overall and keep him from getting so many colds and respiratory stuff, so that's good. I really hope we'll have an answer from the endoscopy rather than needing to do additional tests. Josh is really worried that they just won't find anything, and he'll have to find some way to live with this. But for now, optimism!
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1. First an update on Josh. He's had another attack this week; he couldn't work yesterday or today. The gastroenterologist couldn't move up his appointment, so he'll be going tomorrow. I'm starting to get really worried that something is seriously wrong. I'm also concerned about how he's going to manage work until the doctors can figure out what's wrong with him and address that. We all know how long that process can take. :(

2. I thought the last episode of Lucifer was completely fantastic. SPOILERS )

3. Gotham remains a delight, and I can't wait until it comes back. Baby!Bruce is legit the best Batman of all time. I love watching him develop his Batman ethos. SPOILERS )

4. Finally, we watched Batman Versus Superman last night, and I will say this outside the cut so that you know what you're getting into ahead of time: this was a good movie. Like surprisingly, really good. SPOILERS )

I didn't expect to like this so well. I think it even makes me like the Superman movie, which I already liked just fine, even more because it deals with the fallout from the events in that movie.
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1. My dad is not doing well. He's been feeling physically bad for the past two weeks, including one ER visit. They uploaded the latest results of blood work to the portal yesterday, and his cancer markers are rising again. This is not good news. Mom is extremely depressed; she's trying to wait to completely give in to despair until she speaks to the doctor, but she's losing her optimism.

2. I feel guilty being upset about my own health when Mom and Dad are going through something much more traumatic, but I am really bummed out. I've been having some low level twinges this past week from my IC which pisses me off because if I am giving up eating everything I truly love then I better damn well not have any IC symptoms, you know? I also had to strike another thing I'd been eating frequently because it has soy in it; well, may have soy in it. The ingredient list says something like "vegetable oil (corn, soybean or safflower"), so no way to tell for sure. *sigh* At least I'm not having any side effects from the Elmiron; I did have night sweats a couple times since I started taking it, which is annoying but not on the level of losing my hair or feeling like I have to throw up all the time. So at least there's that.

3. On a more positive note, I have replaced some of my underwear with the correct size and bought several pairs of yoga pants and a pair of pajama pants in my size. I hope to buy a few more pairs of underwear and yoga pants this weekend and close out those categories of wardrobe building. My friends and I are going shopping on the first weekend of March, and I hope to get some nice dresses at that point. I'm going to see Mom and Dad that week, and I hope Mom and I can go shopping. cut for discussion of weight )
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Jane EyreJane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I love this novel, and I love it even better on this reread. One of my favorite novels is Wuthering Heights, and both times I've read Jane Eyre I've been struck by the similarities I see between the sisters' writing (which isn't surprising since they spent so much time writing collaboratively about their imaginary world). Jane Eyre is so modern to me--the first person narrator, the focus on the psychology and motivation of characters, the lack of superfluous description. Dickens writes about orphans and poor people and the disadvantaged, and although I love Dickens, I never once forget that I'm reading a novel written more than a hundred years ago when I read, say, Oliver Twist. When Bronte writes about the same topics in Jane Eyre, they are biting and harrowing and feel contemporary to me in a way that many Victorian novels do not. Wuthering Heights has this modern quality about it as well. The way Jane and Rochester speak to each other--prickly and teasing and sarcastic, one zinger after another--also strikes me as a particularly modern way of writing dialogue. Love this book, love that Jane gets a happy ending, love that she finds a home and a family.

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Wide Sargasso SeaWide Sargasso Sea by Jean Rhys

My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I have to admit that I didn't care overly much for the writing style except in Part 3. Bertha's backstory was much sadder and more cruel than I expected it to be. She is the mirror image of Jane--orphaned, abandoned and mistreated by those who should be family, unloved, sent away to school. There's even a Helen in her life, but they don't become friends like Jane and her Helen. I think I find Rhys's Rochester more monstrous than I was expecting because he does actually love Bertha at one point. He falls for her, and then he listens to gossip and he cheats on her. Totally despicable. I was reading this for pleasure and not taking notes or reading methodically and so the dreamy and disjointed quality of the narrative was at times tedious and confusing, again except in the third section where that style of writing worked perfectly for me. Now that I think of it, I didn't mind the style in the first section which was also narrated by Bertha either; it was only really jarring in the second section where Rochester's voice is no different from Bertha's. This is an interesting companion to Jane Eyre, but I don't believe I will feel compelled to re-read any time soon.

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Man and WifeMan and Wife by Wilkie Collins

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I enjoyed this although not so well as No Name or Woman in White. Man and Wife is very humorous and satirical. Collins is constantly poking fun at the conventions of the time, and he consistently hits the mark when he makes fun of Lady Lundie--the affected, bossy, and manipulative social butterfly. His book was intended to shed light on Scottish marriage laws (which really do sound utterly ridiculous and not at all a good idea), and the story does a good job of revealing their potential for harm. Collins's other thesis is one that amuses me a bit. The main antagonist of the story is an athlete who essentially ruins his body and his mind through exercise. Now, I'm totally on Collins's side when he asserts that national obsession with sports to the exclusion of the arts and the cultivation of the intellect is A Bad Thing, Indeed. I also agree with his implicit thesis that excellent male athletes are forgiven many faults that they shouldn't be because of their athletic prowess and that something is wrong when masculinity is defined solely as a product of physical ability. But to the modern reader, his idea that most people who strenuously exercise are risking paralytic stroke is a bit silly. I have to admit that I found the storyline for the most part predictable (girl is ruined; ruiner declines to marry her; her best friend's fiance is put into a contrived situation in which he appears to be married to her; this problem comprises the bulk of the novel; at the end, the situation is resolved and the best friend's fiance is off the hook) until I got to the last fourth of the book. Then it takes a really unexpected and gripping turn that belies the humor of the beginning. The athlete who ruins our virtuous heroine decides to kill her after he finds a written confession of murder, and the method he employs is really ingenious. The confession is incredibly dark and detailed, and the athlete's mental journey from Asshole to Murderer is fascinating to read. I also loved the very end in which Lady Lundie gets her final comeuppance. I really didn't see that coming.

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